I just feel useless and helpless.


I feel very down right now. And I just wanna cry it out.

Tmr's CNY! And today's reunion dinner night. =)

Im going to Sentosa Flowers on tue!!! And I'm so gonna enter the "Magic Moments" Online Digital Photography Competition!!! But I haven used a digital cam in my life though there's one at home. Nevertheless, I'm gonna "tiao zhan gao nan du" (Take up the tough challenge) Hehe.

Ooh!!! Happy Chinese New Year!

I bet its Flowers all over the world tonight!

I suddenly rmb how this person treats me last year.


I shuddered at the fact tt I'm still friendly to her.


Am I becoming like this person or am I too forgetful?

How many more pple are going to fall for this person's trap?

I'm not gonna say anything, hopefully these PPLE will understand one day.

Anyways. I only have one feeling now.

Life shouldn't be like this.


We shld be able to take charge because this is OUR life.


We shld know what's our priority. We need to make cuts and do things which are more impt at this very moment. All the rest can wait. Since we haven been doing sth for so long, it doesn't matter if we put it off for a period of time. The moment is over for tt. We need to look forward now. More impt things are waiting for me to do. Throwing temper and act crazy won't solve anything.


The impt thing now is to TAKE CHARGE!!!

What do I do? Which one do I do first???

Im completely out of control!

I wanna go ECP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need the breeze to calm me down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't want to feel so full right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know what I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just like muffins. OK!?

Is it the fact that Im not rich therefore, I'm missing out things in life?





Or is it the fact that I'm not outgoing or sociable as others, and so I'm missing out things in life?





Or rather, is it the fact that I dun understand myself and so I'm holding things that r not supposed to continue?





Is it that Im no longer the person pple see me in the past that I MUST see that what others see me now of me??





Or is it that I'm not confidence and swishy-swashy so I'm missing out ALL the things I would like to have and not envy pple whenever I happened to see the things I yearned for on others???





BottomLine:



I have no aims in life. Or rather, my aims are too vague unless I sit down and draw out a plan.





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I've finished Twilight ages ago,and now on new moon, but it wasn't as expected. So, I skip to the back where the interesting parts are. In my situation now, I dun have the luxury of reading and enjoying every part now, where its boring or long-winded ones, before it reaches the climax of tt book. Do all of u understand what I'm talking abt? Whichever, I'm writing cox I feel like.





FYI, I'm imbalance.Right now.





Can I have more time and passion now?





So i can have more time to spare.





Im so frustrated and helpless over AMCA. How do I study without a textbook?





I just feel like swearing now.





KNS!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





Don't come ask me I'm ok or not. Cox anyone w common sense can see I AM NOT!

Such a peaceful afternoon, simply relaxing and windy...


Hopefully this peacefulness prolongs, even after my father comes back...


Tada

Its the start of the school and I'm feeling imbalance. I feel sad and there's nth to do with it.

The fact is I dunno what I want and things just come too fast before I can react.

The foreign lecturer has no main point when he's speaking and I cant catch what others r able to catch. And Im frustrated.

When things just dun come ur way, u cant just sit down there and accept it. Make changes and make sure things go Ur way.

Come on, go get a life pple! But dun lost ur way!!!