I am not happy. It was just wishful thinking on my side. I need a break away from everything.

I do know what I want. I'm not confused, just don't know how to go about solving the it. But I do now. I want to hold on to the things I cherish, I do want to prove sth, can I? I wish, I hope, I can. Keep your place next to me, we'll brave through everything.Together.

My life has been very boring, very very boring... I got no datES!!! Ok, actually its my fault cox im lazy to go out...but its kinda diff to arrange for outings and such right??? I've been looking for jobs but as we know, Luck isn't so much on me when comes to this...but I do miss the days of working coz there's money to be earn!!!

省钱不可耻，伸手要钱才可耻。

Tts a philosophy which I learn from Rainie Yang. Good Philosophy. I have great plans for myself now, but first I need a job to fulfil these plans.

Since my life is so boring, I surf webs, and I came across many cakes and dessert blogs tt makes me drool! Ricky L. when r u gonna bring me to eat?!?But Im eating only half, u got to polish the other one and a half cakes off! hah!

Another blog tt I surf was Mary Bukoh's blog...which I found some of the entries tt simply touching and capable of making pple heartache as one reads on...

hmmm, with spare time tt I enjoyed now, I get to finish the Kite Runner tt was bought long ago...Simply touching and riveting.

The next one on the go would be The five pple u meet in heaven. And I am sure tt is gonna bring another twirl of emotions in me.

Im snapping...insecurity engulfed me.I'll conquer.

I don't care about other things anymore, for I am determined this time. Nth can wavered my decisions this time. I'm foolish, childish, I'm awake. I don't mean other things, don't think otherwise.

Norah Jones's songs are good for soothing...
Suddenly, I missed my plums, comforting plums...

I am happy today because I ....got 2 drawings!!!

I wish there is something I can do for him, so tt he won't be the only one trying so hard...
I wish there is something I can do, so tt I can share his burden & everything...
I've been trying hard to imagine the things he had to go through, and I absolutely understand his feelings...but,
What exactly is the something tt I can do then?

This entry is dedicated to 1 faithful person.



My Beloved Ah Ni Ni



Ah ni ni! Do u know how much I LOVE U?!?

U're so adorable,
so cute,
so sweet,
appealing,
endearing,
pretty,
attractive,
charming,
delightful,
gorgeous,
stunning,
elegant,
dazzling....Are all THESE enough? If not I'll be glad to add more, but DUN say I'm mushy & disgusting ok?!?

I was pondering over some qns...
I came across my frenz's blog and she wrote tt she cant stand those mushy lovey-dovey stuffs...
and I was thinking whether these lovey-dovey filled my life, do they filled YOUR life?



I put some of my fav songs up on this blog, but how many pple wld take the time to listen all of them, who wld take the time to read my past entries...just how many pple wld put in that extra effort to make someone happy in the way tt someone wants?




Well, of all this big big world, one might not be able find ur ideal half...even if u have, how certain r u ,to say tt the person u found is the ideal one...when in fact, sometimes pple dun even know how ideal shld their ideal half be...




Some people ,for fear tt the things they do will make the pple they love go away...and so they DO things tt their loved ones like, and ignore their own feelings and thinking...as time goes by, they forgot abt their stand...their character...most importantly, they forgot who they are, immersing in pool of tears and misery. Only to find tt their so-called "loved ones" will still go away one day, unappreciate of their efforts and hardwork tt they've put in...



Hah! Just some random thoughts of mine! Do u pple understand what I'm talking?

I realized I'm so naive and foolish...I dunno what I'm doing in the past few weeks...Its time to stop all this, before things get ugly...and cant turn back.

I'll go bonkers if I'm continually been stressed by this "vicious cycle" I made up. Is it a vicious cycle? Or is it tt I'm too bothered abt it when its actually nth...

I had a wonderful day today! Though some might say y am I always outside...but I know the time spent was always so short and hard. Pple who didnt see my hardwork can't criticize me. Nonetheless, I know someone out there is also working hard with me also, right? :)

I think this song below best describes my feelings now...Nvm,one week will pass very soon!




Avril Lavigne :: When you're gone



I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

hmmm...from tmr onwards, sm's gonna get stuck in the camp for two whole weeks...tts to say I cant see him as well...haiz. Ytd was the worst day of my life I guess.I really dun wish history to repeat itself agn.Really can't. Though he promised to call everyday, but I doubt its possible to do so since he's serving his reservist,the days must be tired, I can't be so selfish to expect him to call everyday...

Nonetheless, we enjoyed ourselves today. Though Haw Par Villa wasn't really a wonderful place to hang out, but we did enjoy ourselves. Tts good enough.
And 10,000 b.c. was really a good movie!!! Its funny, serious,touching,sacarstic...U name it,they have it.And well, Tt marked our day as well. Though I hate to say it, but I think I'm really gonna miss sm.

I like Him. I like surprises. But I like him more.

I'm currently in a state of hanging-in-the-air.But I'll find my direction real soon.

Im so tired and I had a craving for movies badly...Had a number of movies wanting to watch...(listing not in order)

#L: Change The World
#The Leap Years
#The Diving Bell And The Butterfly **
#Away From Her
#Juno

Hmph...I really wanna watch...

Yeah!I've fallen sick agn! Or shld I say I've never recover ... I'm experiencing influenza & the ulcer tt was heal weeks ago seems to be appearing at the same place agn...haiya...looks like must heed auntie meng's advice & eat more fruits ...

I was doing this test abt "what sign is ur true love" when the result was....

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt. Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs. A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

ok there.Haven been feeling well these days.First, I was so tired I actually took a 2-hr afternoon nap.This may be no big deal,but for a person who's seldom take afternoon naps(1-2 times a year!), 2-hr aftnn nap is a big deal. Next,after I was refreshed from the nap,I found my left eye rather red,so I did a brave thing, put on eye drops.I've always been afraid to put on eye drops, it scares me off,but nevertheless, I still did.for the few days couple days somemore:(
Then, as my eye was getting better, my cough deteriorates.I was basically coughing from last night till test today. Creating a nuisance for the pple sitting next to me...When can cough leave me?Theres something "better"I cant meet woodblock for the next couple of weeks,not even lunch. Whats even "better" is tt he'll be going for reservist 1-2weeks aft.Which means,we might be out of each other's vision for almost 1 month."Best".And I'm having dizzy spells now...Better stop here b4 I talk nonsense...


I miss u

I'm so stressed up.I can't seem to find anyone to stand by me when I needed somebody to be there. I felt so lonely and I don't know what I'm doing, what I'm talking,what I'm thinking...

Happy Things today: Dear surprise me today!He turn up in school unexpectedly!!!Hehe,though the time spent werent long,but I'm still v glad he came specially to see me:)at least there's something to brighten me today.

Unhappy things today: I don't understand why I'm so stupid,I just can't figure the stuffs if my friends didnt help me. I cant blame the lecturer coz since my frenz can figure out the stuffs taught by him,y cant I?ARGH!!!!!!!!I need gravity!