Todays the end of exam...dunno what im writing in the papers...
then i went vivo with cynthia and shuzk...and im dressed in t shirts and shorts,so unglam...
my bag is so heavy tt it nearly drop into the toilet bowl...Eeeek...
We had lunch at HK Kim Gary Cafe...i think its too oily and the portion of rice they gave was too much...
I dun understand why such bitches exist in the worlds and they are only age 15...I wish i shave all their hairs and put them in the shoes and shit tt they had gotten pple into...Bitches...

也许我的人生会因金钱所束缚。。。

Not much to blog abt,everyday has been sleeping,eating,studying,tuitioning...where got so much things to do...no time to do also...Haven been sleeping well,how i wish i dun feel tired,no need to sleep,work all day long,like a wonder woman!But cnt be la,i nearly forgot to take my thumbdrive ytd aft bus com class...not enough sleep la...

The acc lecturer share some quotes with us, the one he was most inspired one was " Life is like a drawing without an eraser". It kinda of makes me ponder a while...indeed its true.Nth we done can be erased away...

Bus com today was interesting and short!The design came up by my group was running 24-hrs non-stop one coz we dun have a power switch,kao!hahaz.k lame,anyway,im gonna watch ratatouille later!I know its kinda lag to watch now but i can only watch it now mah. Exams are coming and I haven make my notes!argh!its only two mths since we start school and we're havin exams in a blink of an eye!And my project!Like nv-ending work,action plans,promotional strategies!I haven even learn and expect me to write like expert.Best.

Ting is having a not-so-good day,am tired with lotsa of things undone.Tmr will be a better day!

Am currently blogging at home,just finish my computing class,its fun,competitive and complex.hah,but its enjoyable doing the assignment. Anyway,last week when I met up with Choon and yi,I've received pre-birthday presents from them!Its a blush and a box with 3 sticks of hand therapy cream!Earlier on that day I've also received Teachers' Day present from my student!So happy !But on my birthday itself I guess I wld be mugging at home coz the day b4 is Macro test and day afrer my birthday is Accounts test,which,i feared most!

I can't concentrate on studying in the afternoon and at night,Im too tired to study!How?!?
How I wished I can watch movie now,but I cannot!No life sia...I think Im going berserk cox I dunno what Im talking...nvm,till the ,cya!

I've finally finished my bus com homework!Its tedious!Mostly because I was careless and the damn formulas are so tedious to make out!ARGH!Anyway my purpose here is to share a song!Its not very new,rather old actually,but good songs dun die eh.

Here you goes:

Janice -Never let you go

The rain just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same
Everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart can't seem to learn to part
The hold you left your mark
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath
A part of me was dying
There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

*Chorus
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go

The way you left me on the train
don't know what to say
I remember everything that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
Just need one more chance
To share the sunset
Our one last romance

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath
A part of me was dying
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go

12.11am,I'm still researching for my project. After looking at the researches, then I realise our pdt has got ,not much markets,or should I say,not v. imteresting.WTH.The disturbed sleep last night caused me to put on my long-nv-seen specs on.I look so funny and weird and odd.Though I've done some research but,I think my research like nth to do with my pdt leh,so confusing!I actually dunno how to find the correct data!

Speaking of data,its gonna be bus. computing class this thur!I hate bus. computing,I just dun like all those processes in the com la,and I still have to make them work!Worse still,be tested on them!Heck!

And my acc.,i still dun understand why some figures are on the left side and some on right side!Wah!

I feel so tired,eyes are half-closed now,and I'm hungry,again!I think must be the cold weather thats causing it.Tmr I'll be having a meeting with my grp mem. Wish everything will be fun and tmr's macro. class be wonderful.

I just realised my blog box(the box where I wrote my contents inside) was working,not squeezing anymore.Thanks to Ah Bee Bee!(:

I'm absolutely unhappy .While I was doing research for my report just now,I realised doing a report is so difficult!There are so much things to do!Brief report to be in by this fri and I didn't even know where to start!*scream*
Tmr we're going to discuss the report and I'm like searching anyhow for the research(like headless-fly)clueless!!!

Although I don't seem to lose weight recently,but I have a craving for saussage muffin with eggs from Mac!Its been such a long time since I ate it!Wish it will drop from the sky!

I am so absolutely bothered tt I can't win the tickets to NDP@Marina!!! I've send in two entries and I am not picked!I really wanna go !First I go to their web to do the necessary application for the tickets,but the website is not working on my COM!!!Then I saw the ZaoBao and I've send in two entries and still I'm not picked!How can they disappoint such an enthusiastic spectator like me???
Anyway, I'm gonna change my blogskin,so look forward to it!

Its a brand new month!Today marks the end of the lec. on mktg princp. I seem to learn a lot,yet not that much aftall...but the video tt prof. show us today was interesting,the simpsons one ytd was brilliant.Anyway,today was an early day in school cox the lecture was so sick I think he's gonna collapse from those intense coughing...but tmr's gonna be a long day!10 to 5pm!And tuition's at 8pm...will be my turn to collapse tmr.Oh,and tmr's lesson will be macro and intro. acc.Macro will be all the stuffs I learn in JC so i think shld be ok,though I did it lousy in my As :(
the intro acc wld be quite diff. from what I heard from the OGLs.I think I'm getting old,yawning away during lec. and my eyes are heavy ...shall have a siesta later.Till then,cya folks!

Im always so clumsy,can I be clumsier???This morning while I was boarding the bus to school,I crash my big bag into a passenger who was sitting innocently in his seat!Hahaz!Aft that,I made a 360 degree turn to lean against the round round thing on the bus...When most of the passengers alight at the bus-stop opp. ngee ann poly,I turn ard to take a seat ,to my horror,I saw my primary sch frenz's backview,and this frenz was sitting just next to the person that I greatly crash my big bag onto!So he saw all my stupid actions!Wau Kao!

Anyway,today's lecture quite ok,some of my econ knowledge did some help in understanding in the notes.The school provides food such as pineapple tarts(2 types),curry puffs and some beverages for us during the breaks...Dont think its FOC,coz they are already included in our tuition fees...But I prefer just just short breaks coz its kinda wasting time to be eatin and drinking when we can finish the lecture in much shorter time...I know that breaks can rejuvenate our mind but its just...well,watever.

This morning was a stupid morning for me. This is dunno the XXXX time that I got trapped outside my house.Lets just talk abt the V. previous time,which is only last week,I got trapped because I forgot to bring my keys when I actually rmb to bring my brolly.This time,yes,its today,guess what?I did bring my KEYS!And I stupidly turn the knob to the left instead of the right,and my door got locked from inside!BEST! Nobodys at home so I got to wait!The longest record was probably 1.5 hours,today was better,waited 1 hr.

I'm going school next mon!!!!!!!!!!I'm so excited and anxious and nervous....Though its not the school I want but At least theres a school for me.Heard that its quite difficult to make frenz cuz everyone's like got their own frenz and everyone just disappear aft lectures.The only to is to join CCA.But I guess I dun have time to join...My frenz told me that Student Council is v. competitive...and Im thinking of joining coz it looks good on your resume but,involves a lot of commitment...Im also thinking of singing club,sounds simple ,more relax?Not too sure,lets wait for everything to settle down when I got into school first...

Just got my lecture schedule today...next week start lesson and I have to study from mon all the way to SAT!omg,whats this manx!its worst than JC.When I think of joining none of the CCAs,my frenz are joining more than one ...sick...now that the timetable is so packed,I have to even drop one of my tuitions ...less money to earn,hmphz!

These make up my mind to enjoy this freely last week of life...at least for this coming three years...sob*

Feeling so tired now...my eyes are drooling..anyway,have been buying lotsa stuffs for the past few days,four tops,2 pairs of shoes and a bag from far east and bugis ,v. happy coz i like all the stuffs i bought...but coz a lot seh.I actually wanna post the pictures in this blog,but on second thought,I'm tired to do so..hahaz.Im going school in a week's time,but ,the school haven send us the schedule for our lesson.good!And, I'm using my laptop to blog now!I'm finally having my own laptop...but its not as excited as I thought I will hahax...is this some kind of paradox or something?whatever,btw,FRENZ,help keep my blog alive by taggin k?CYA!

Hmm,its been a long time since I've updated my blog and since I've also remove the tagboard, I really have no idea how many pple are reading my blog...
Anyway, time flies, I'm going uni in 30th july. So fast...No idea how the life would be when we're in uni...but I still need to try hard to accommodate...Uni is so vague and the pple inside are all ,inter-related?How comw they seem to know everyone else in the LT. Whatever.A friend mentioned tt never trust and rely on a single friend cuz u dunno what will happen the very next moment,and thus we need to enlarge our social circle. Guess it makes sense.I'm so used to doing nth and relaxing at my home. Although I teach tuitions, but tts only in the night and on weekends...(im having 5 students and im teaching each of them every night k,even on weekends, Im not a free-loader)Wld I be used to the life in uni?I think my luck is so damn not gd, I always got myself into schs with none of my frenz inside...like YJC, wld anyone be so stupid to crash into a sch in Yishun when she's living in Bt panjang??And, none of my frenz,or anyone in my sec sch enter the sch...haiz.I'm always so alone!!!But I have one v. habit,I will only get real worried a few days before the actual event happens...so, I'm gonna enjoy the remaining half a month's schoolesss(spelt like tt?) days...hahz.And I'm gonna revive my tagboard so my blog will be slightly lively...Enough of the grumbling...Something happened when I was teaching tuition this morning,I actually had the power to make pple cry?!?While I was teaching my student spelling, I(smilingly) told her to stand up to spell,so tt i can make her slightly serious and awake..Guess what happened?After she sat down, she actually cry?!?Wow?am i what?tigress or what?And I still need to wipe her tears and coaxed her ...what have I done?And when her mum ask y she cry?she said nth.I wld have said the same ,coz her mum was practically scolding her on why she cant even spell simple wrdz like CAR??And her mum was so fierce tt I was almost intimidated by her...WTH.

I'm looking forward to fri though...

Looking at the pple trying to find out what their past life is, to satisfy my curiosity, I did the test.

Its goes like this:

You were female in your last earthly incarnation.

You were born somewhere in the territory of modern USA North-East around the year 1075.

Your profession was that of a farmer, weaver or tailor.

Seeker of truth and wisdom.

You could have seen your future lives.

Others perceived you as an idealist illuminating path to future.

Your lesson is to develop a kind attitude towards people, and to acquire the gift of understanding and compassion.

Do you remember now?

I absolutely don't remember...anything...

hello pple, my blog have been so deserted that spiders webs gonna appear...anyway,these few weeks my schedule have been quite hectic.First there is the applying of bank loan and termination of bank loan...second,there is the preparing of tuition materials for my students but these few days are quite relax coz some of the students' parents decided to stop the tuition for a while during the hols to let their kids to rest...hmmm,another thing,my school gonna start soon but i will try to enjoy this long break and recharge myself for the upcoming school days!gtg and prepare stuffs for tuitions agn...cya pple

DAMN IT !

I am so DAMN ANGRY!
I AM so DAMN UPSET !
I AM SO DAMN STRESS!
I AM SO DAMN HELPLESS!
SO DAMN USELESS!
SO DAMN BORING!
THat invisible hand thats manipulating my life,just GO AWAY!
Isn't that lesson enough to pay the price of my mistake?!?
Haven't I done enough to pay for it?I am paying now SO please give me back the life I've always lead 7 years ago!!!!!!

I found this Very nice pic on the a website...esp the flowers!

Actually...from here u can see that Its PAINTED BY ME!

I was bored and I began to do this pic...its consider a not-bad-piece by a non-artistic me..hehez

I am feeling extremely unwell,I so in pain thant I'm almost to the ground!

Hi guys!I dunno whats happening to blogger cuz the icons in the posting area is all messed up. But anyway I'm able to do the blogging...I just watched the Just follow law DVD and my sis went to explore the laozhabor.blogspot.com and there is really this blog!Its so amazing and I went on to see her older posts then i realized she's already on papers for a couple of time!wow~And I recently just finished a book "Vanished" by Karen Robards. Its my first time reading a thriller and its a v. nice book,a rather gd book to introduce to all of u.Oh yeah, I'm also quite addicted to watching My girl ..but I can only watched it on youtube...i dun like small screen...haiz,my sister took so long still haven borrow for me!!!argh!opps,getting more and more short-tempered.Not choice,when things doesn't go well for one,one gets crazy...K ,i noe your dunno what Im talkin abt...nvm...

I’ve been very bored but busy these days. Bored because there is nth new for me to do anyway. However, now is the season of exams and this means I have quite busy schedule for tuitions. Three tuitions a day for me is hectic. CCK to Bt Batok to TW,tired! And I think I have been too nice to my students that they tend to get too easy on their work …haiz,too strict cannot,too lenient cannot…what the heck. Days ago,choon just told me a website to watch shows and the image are quite clear. I’ve watch 200 pounds of beauty and its quite nice. The ost is also nice,tts why I’ve put in my playlist in this blog. The name is star. Very nice! But I dun understand why the Hanna still likes the producer when she noes he is using her. Anyway I like the ending of this movie.Hehez. I wanna go out,but I’m lazy to travel. There should be a invent teleport and teleport scroll,whenever we need to go to places,just teleport. Damn nice.Well,bottom line is,I’m lazy.

Its Laour Day today!And I'm quite busy!hahaz,I've got three tuition today and two of them was in the morning ,consecutively...Busy is a good thing for me,that means I don't have time to think too much.I am trying very hard not to think pessimistically and I really hope it does well for me.Labour day up to this moment seems a good day,people are playing badminton at the bad. court downstairs and the playground is filled with kids,its crowded and nice.Not like usual where everyone is busy with work and studies and no one remember what is fun...Back to my tuition,I'm quite worried for my student,he did not do well for his CA and his SA is coming up,there is simply no enough time to help him.Haiz,I hope I can improve his grades and they wil continue to hire me...hehez.Hopefully.

This just makes me HIGH!

My life has been so boring that I've got not much thing to blog about.However, when I came across one of my friends blog,it seems like she and others are clinching good job at banks,whereas Im just a tuition teacher.I am so envious of them!haiz,but what can I do?I am just not in luck.Argh!
Oh yeah anyway, now that I'm into the job of tuition, i have to do tuition morning as well,so that means i need to take the LRT in the morning. All these while that i've taken the lrt,I've seen two of my primary sch frenz,BUT,we did not even make an eye contact !Why?!? I also dunno, maybe theres the shyness,the awkwardness that wedge in between us. How nice if all of us were to travel into the time dimension whereby we were all primary school kids.There would be dreams,wishes and hope.Not like now,several things are really,beyond our control.
But No way am i gonna lead my life like that.I want a change in my life,Yesh!

I read bukoh mary's blog and came by this line :如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有什么意义？
I was thinking
:如果时间不可以令我忘记那些不该记住的事，我失去的岁月又有什么意义？

Youth is like flower seeds before they sprout.Just as growing seeds must break through a layer of soil, youth is the time for challenge. Only those who challenge will develop themselves with strength and become victors in life. Look forward as someone blossom into a beautiful and strong person.Wish it,Dream it,Do it!

I'm still unable to put that regret behind me,no matter how hard I've try.

: Busy busy:

Saturday was a busy day for me. I had to wake up at 7am, get out of home at 8.15am to teach tuition at CCK which was at 9am.After the hectic tuition with the active kid, on the way home, another kid’s mother ring me up to change the tuition time in the aftn from 2.30 to 1.30pm. So when I reached home, it was 11am. Two more hrs to rest before I went off for tuition. My lunch was a bit pathetic, Koka noodles +hotdog. Aft a quick bath, I went out again. When I reached there, I realized I had to teach the kid 3 pic discussion, which was supposed to be quite fast ,if not for the kid sucking his “push and pop” sweet and talking away. He can write halfway and ask me qns like “Do you want to be a teacher when you grow up?” and “Do you play maple story?” and he would start blabbering away. The thing is if he can multi-task between his mouth and his hand that would be good. But, he cannot. When his mouth started moving, his hand stops moving at the same time, vice versa. That’s the thing about kids, they won’t know what to say, what not to say. Simply put, they have no secrets. So after this aftn tuition, I reached home at about 4 plus. However, my day did not end like that; I still got night tuition at 8pm, at bt batok. Wow~ But the he good thing is papa managed to get home in time to drive me there, so I can rest a bit more of time and saved me the hassle of changing two buses, most importantly, saved the bus fare. I slept quite early ytd,at 11.30pm. This is not abnormal for me who had nightmares and insomnia the days before. I dreamt of people jumping off the building comitting suicide,for two consecutive nights.Horrible. I was awaken from these nightmares and went back to sleep in vain.I kept tossing and turning,and I realised I think Im suffering from hair loss. Every morning when Im making my bed,I always spotted lots of hair on my bed,OMG!Im still tired though ytd night I didnt have nightmare but I was dreaming the whole night. People told me that dreams can strain your energy. I dreamt that the guy I like was a gay but I cant see the face of the mysterious guy!Weird eh?!?I must be thinking too much...

Here's a interesting story to share with all :

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full they agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar . Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things- your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions--things that if everything else was lost and only they remained ...your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car.The sand is everything else -- the small stuff.If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal." Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

When things in your life seem almost too much too handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

nice?

Hmmm… I felt very lazy to upload the pictures I’ve promised, so no pictures for this entry. Frankly speaking, I’ve not much interesting things happening to my life up till this moment of my life, so, I actually don’t know what to blog about. Talking about last Friday, I went to the little get-together cum JJ +Annabel birthday surprise session with the sec peeps. It was quite ok, at least I managed to know what’s happening to their life at the moment and how’re they doing. One thing that I’m sure of is that, my good friends and I have drifted. Not far, but very far. I have no idea what the things they are talking among themselves coz I’m the only jc student there and they are all poly. Not that I don’t feel comfortable or think they what ok! I just think I dunno the stuffs they’re talking about. Those goggles…sci lab…attachments. They were discussing among themselves and I …was really out of the picture. Sad. The only fortunate thing was that JJ was able to crap with me throughout the dinner time coz she don’t want to talk about school stuffs after her attachment whole day …she was tired. My friend used to consult, or should I say confide her problems to me…now, I don’t even know who her crush is. The gap is getting bigger and bigger but I can’t seem to seal it back. Guess the time and chemistry is not there anymore.

Nostalgia II

On wed, I went back to YJ to retrieve my testimonial. Coz I dun want to go collect it myself in may, so I went with a friend who happens to go back also. Along the way, I saw familiar roads, familiar buildings, and familiar uniform. When we stepped into the school, I was hoping not to bump into any teachers coz I don’t know how to face them with my results you see…anyway, we met someone unexpectedly…Our once-lib-teacher-in-charge. He seems to not see us and scurried hurriedly away. Aft we’ve collected our things, we went to the canteen coz the food was one of the things we missed in YJ. We went to the familiar Malay stall and amazingly, the friendly auntie still remembers us and we catch up a bit. Touched and happy was what I felt. My friend packed her food and off we go. On the way back to the interchange, I passed by the playground where my friend and I used to played before. Yes, I admit we were quite childish but those are memories that we hold on together eh. As much as I hate YJ, I’ve learn a lot in YJ. It exposes me to all kinds of people and situations and allows me to experience many things I’ve never done and felt before. I’ve taken some pictures of the interchange where I’ve been taking the 171 bus to and fro school; will upload probably in the next post. Guess that’s all for this entry, see your in the next entry, bye dudes.

Nostalgia I

TAda!I'm back.Cheers.K enough of the disgusting stuffs. Got quite a no. of things to blog.Lets start with the tiny weeny gathering ...shld be tiny weeny get-together with my ex-jc frenz.Its was quite a fun outing,though some of the usual peeps still ps us.However,its quite good that we can still stay "buddy" without any awkwardness...The three of them have not changed a bit. Cant believe the last time I saw them was nearly 2 YEARS ago...hahaz.Aft we meet up,huiwen wanna eat pepper lunch...she claim that there is one in raffles city but going rounds in the mall,we still cnt find.So...we went marina sq where we FINALLY settle for Billy Bombers aft much dicussions.

My surf n turf (fish,steak with potato salad)

huiyu's steak with potato salad

huiwen's ole fish n fries(she went to see handsome models on the runway b4 the food is even served!hehe)
see teng's balls o'fire sp
Taken in Esplanade...nice bamboos

Reminiscence

(ALL Photos provided by nice see teng)

Look forward to Nostalgia II.Bye peeps:)

I dun really like today.I went to tutor one of my kids tonight. He got 3/10 for his spelling. I really dun understand,when I taught him last week,he can rmb,however when he went for spelling the next day, he forgot everything. I came to know some things now,maybe I’m not cut out for studies at all.I should have gone to poly and not waste my two years of JC and gotten this damn lousy results.What am I supposed to do aft this?Looking at my friends who got so damn good results in his common tests, I really felt so awful.Why did I insist on going to JC aft so many coaxes and reminders?Now,I have to struggle to make more money to afford the hefty school fees of the pte uni.JCU called me today,confirm me a place there,but Im gonna wait for SIM first. Im currenly having six kids for tutoring ,though some of the tuition fees are below the market price,but I dun really mind.Though I still grumble a bit here and there,but having to be tutoring for the first time for all the primary levels,hopefully I can handle.Soo mei says that uni only study about 2-3 days a week,so that left me sufficient time to tutor pple in the morning and aft. I really hope I can handle my studies and tutoring well,if not,I really dunno where to produce the money when the semester comes. Jia you!

Hmmm…its been two weeks since my last entry.These two weeks have been the most ups and downs in my life ever since I was breathing.Lets not talk about the past and look forward.I applied for SIM and the course was business admin. Sounds a bit unbelievable?I thought so. I’m not a person that’s practical and I thought I’ll never go into business in my whole wide life,not even my next lifetime.However,given my situation, I have to go into a course that enables me to secure a job next time I enter the society.I dunno if I had the confidence to outmaneuver it.I can’t imagine carrying a laptop around talking about finance,economics,the govt’s budget and flipping the Money and Economy and Finance section of Straits Time.However, to study business,I had to read newspaper and got a good grasp of the current economics situation.Business is so…too practical for me. I went to JCU ytd also.Its inside SPRING building.Kinda ulu when frenz and I went in,and I had a clearer view of what I’m gonna study under business.The tourism management sounds nice also,but the JCU is rather far for me and there is even a class with 1 lecturer and 2 students inside only!Strange.Or should I apply pte cand. as well?haiz.There was a $200 bucks tuition offer for me,but in the end,the parents found another agency .sai.I’ve only 2 students under me.Not enough.Need more.I know this is a lousy way to end this blog entry but I really dunno what else to write,look forward to my next entry folks,bye!

Hi everyone, haven been posting any new entries for the past couples of day.Reason being, I dun have any particular things to post given that nothing interesting have been happening to my life.Tmr,will be the biggest event of my life in 2007.My results gonna released at 2.30pm sharp.I'm still not feeling nervous and have been eating and sleeping well.This is not a good thing,and v, unusual.Not because I'm confident.Its v. abnormal.I dunno how many pple are viewing my blog,but I have to say,I really dunno whats gonna happen tmr.I aint gonna see my good frenz coz they are gonna be.....so I have a lonely feeling of getting the results .Furthermore,I dunno what expressions my teachers gonna give me given that they are quite.........Why haven i thought of all these things when took the exam????!!!Those who read my blog, give me all your good luck!

The Protégé

I went to watch The Protégé with yinting.The movie turn out to be v. diff from what I thought.Its quite amazing to see how their “kitchen”where drugs are produced are ,plus how the drug-peddlers and the police nicknamed diff. size and kinds of drug. Though the scene of the female lead been bitten by the rats are horrifying, however, I think her acting skills are fabulous.Her daughter ,to me,is strong.Not physically but mentally.She only cried once and she is obedient,knows how to take care of herself by running to the undercover to look for food.Although she is young and kinda ignorant---but she is good in some way.Other children only knows how to cry. Andy lau’s part is touching and sad.I can understand his point of view to earn fast money,but as the undercover said, his values are wrong.Absolutely to me. The last scene leaves me puzzled. Did or did not the undercover inject the drug?Think not.As I said,the girl is good in some way. Pulls away the needle.

Trust is also another highlight in the movie.I dun understand why the Kun ge(Andy lau's character) would choose to believe in the undercover and when in fact,he doesn't believe in anyone ,not even his business partners.I feel so sorry for him when he said all those things that the undercover and him went through that made him believe in the undercover.His last begging of the undercover to allow him to die shows his love for his family.He deceive himself by believing that the business he did is not wrong,but actual fact,he does know.Thats why he keep saying things like"Its the drug-addicters fault,I did not promote drugs..."over and over again in fast speed.People might think its a funny scene,its does,but there seems to be an underlying meaning to me.
The whole movie compromises of comedy,tragic,harshness of reality and...running away from reality of people.Good movie indeed.

Its 12.35pm and I cant get to sleep.I feel so stressed talkin with my friend, she actually got to thinking and....argh!I 've been having so many sleepless nights ,thinking about so many things that I dun wanna think.Schooling stressed,working unhappy,no work also unhappy,Y is my life so dull and boring?So empty,dry and lifeless!I think Im gonna hibernate and retreat into my own world soon, just like in the past,gu pi!

Frustrated is the word!

I've been hooked on to this jap animations called "Atashin'chin" aka 我們這一家.Its v. hilarious ans it brightens up my day.The characters are,too,v. funny and it portrays problems and situations tts v. close to our livelihood.Its available at the youtube.

The happy family

Daughter and her bestie
The LEAD Character,Mrs Hua!

I just wanna live my life carefree now, sleep 12 hrs a day, read my v, own books, do housework,good temper,smile wide wide everyday.Not everyone have to live the life of someone else,envy doesnt get anyone anywhere, neither do jealousy.Carpe diem,do the things we want, say the things we want, dun let timidness,cowardness overwhelmed us,for we dont know when we be gone.Have a big heart.

Actually I had a draft of ytd's blog, but I cant seem to cont'd the post.Haiz,anyway, my frenz sms ytd telling me she got a tuition assignment,askin me whether to take up anot,i agree and she said will tell me more today.However, she went to ask another frenz of mine TODAY askin her whether she wans the assignment anot.I mean,What is this?I've already agreed and she go on to approach other pple without even telling me the rest ??Can frenz be trusted?NO.Should have known this thoery v. well.The good thing is I did not place too much hope on this task ,if not, I would be cursing and swearing now.Its been more than a year since I've patronize Kbox,haiz, when can I go?PPle say tt 9 Feb is the date of O'lvl results release, one week aft,which is 16 Feb, will be A lvl's turn.What the heck, can they give me a happy CNY?Just 2 days b4 if they release results,I will go bonkers.Furthermore, MY clique are going to take their results at a much later time than me, so,I supposed nobody's gonna go with me...BEST.PUI4Am I supposed to go to the hall and sit down there alone?Like an idiot?And face everything by myself?Damn it.Better to depend on oneself,no one's gonna accompany and support anyone forever.

Bakery..random

I'd wish to work in a bakery if given the chance.Ever since I've read the book "Sophie's bakery for the broken heart",I think that it would be great to work in a bakery, if possible, my own bakery!However,I don't even know how to bake a cookie, how is it gonna be possible leh?

Anyway, I finally got the chance to eat my "DA WAN MIAN",its actually fried chicken noodles.But its my favourite meal at bt panjang plaza. I always eat that whenever I went there.I dunno why I like the dish but its just my fav.Hehez.

pic taken from www.justhungry.com

Fragile life...

A great day today.Ytd the news reported an actress from taiwan got hit and was in dangerous coma, but hours later, she was reported dead.She is not even the driver but was just sitting at the front seat and she got such a great impact on the head from the hit that she died.While the driver, which is her assistant,suffered ,minor injuries.She was so young and so many things waiting for her to do.I feel so sad for her.It then occurred to me that really," life occurs in a split second","shen ming zai yu shun jian".While I was passing by the living room to walk over to my room, I saw the floods in Malaysia and 17 pple died in tt,suddenly I thought of the so called "floods" in Singapore,and realised, could Singapore encounter such floods?And,could we die in that kind of floods?It is said that Singapore do not have any natural disasters,but then, floods,from the unusual rains these days,could have worsen and we would be in that kind of situation aint it?I was phoning my ex-boss and negotiating over my pay and realised I count one day less, shit, must remember to tell her if not she cut more pay.Damn her.But when thinking that a person's life could be so fragile, I felt less angry at her behaviour.Why not let go a bit to relax myself and lead a happier life?Since I have no idea of when I'd be taken by god...

Whirl of emotions

I went to meet my good friend today.She is so poor thing and till now,I dunno if she had recovered from it. Anyway, I feel so sad for her that I cry for her.But at least she have sonmebody to think of when she's lonely, I dun even have a dui xiang!omg, my life is so empty now, no job, no nothing.Heard that A levels gonna released ard 9/2, Damn shock!I dun wan!I wan a happy CNY.I really dunno what to do, what i can do, I'm so lost!Everything is so not right, nothing is going well and perfect for me at this moment of my life!And the stupid horoscope book say i have everything going well,shit book.Darn book.I wish I can have the powers to control everything in my life,make everything go well and perfect as I wish.

Remember

Upon pondering what time should I go for my interview, I thought of something that was thrown to the back of my head ever since dunno when.I was excited at having this interview later,but as time goes by, I started to chicken out, hesitating, its not easy to find a decent job that my father approves of which is near my house,and now, there is two such job.Dental asst. and clinic asst.I really dun lyk this of myself.As I think about something for a long time, i tend to give it up.Its just then i remember a phrase that i found in chicken soup that encourages me some time ago and I like it a lot.It goes like this, "Being brave is not not being scared.Brave is being scared and having to do what you have to do."Moreover,this is just an interview,not a life and death issue, whats there for me to chicken out?I have encounter countless interviews before,so this is not a problem...Whatever the case is, wish me good luck!

I'm sick...again.

So sorry tt i haven been updating my blog for so long,almost a week eh.Hmmm,first,is tt i'm plain too lazy and theres nothing interesting for me to blog.Anyway, I've fallen sick again...v. well.thanks to my younger sis ,she wake up with fever the day before, in the afternoon,we thought her fever is gone and she would be better.But then,she change to keep throwing up, so my father and me took her to the 24 hrs clinic tt very night.Though she had an injection to stop her vomitting,she still keeps on vomittin when we reached home,so i had to rush with her to the washroom during the night.The next thing i know when i wake up,is that im down with fever,sore throat,flu.Best.Except to wake up to eat, i slept throughout the day.Maybe I slept too much during the day, i had problem sleeping at night.I kept tossing and tossing but i still fall to sleep,and my nose is so blocked that i has difficulty breathing.What a day.Today, though my fever is gone, my sore throat and blocked nose is still there.And tomorrow i had an interview.I must secure this job, i Must and I have to!Hope my voice can be clear tomorrow.

Comeback

Hi everyone, ever since i terminated my last blog, I've never thought of creating a blog anymore, cause my blog address has ever been changing and I got quite sick of telling people to relink me. It's kind of a nuisance.However, I came to a decision once more and this shall be my last ever blog and its not gonna change webby anymore.If anytime should I terminate this blog, it means there is no blog of mine anymore.Haz.
In the year of 2007, I've finally started working and its been my wish of end 2006.However, this working period has only lasted for barely a week.Partly because my rashness took control of me, also, I'm rather unhappy at the job although its quite safe and steady.So, my job hunting begins again.I'm getting a bit restless looking at the newspaper recruit section everyday.But I know I should adpat a more active attitude.I will.I'm gonna try out new things this very year.Though I'm 19, but I don't think I will go for driving lesson cause my passion for that is not here yet and I don't wanna force myself to do things that I don't like.So, thst will be placed aside for the time period.
One more thing, I've finally found the suitable blog name,MOODSWING.My moodswing is really huge and, swings are nice.(?)

Since I'm free for the time being, I'm engaging in a book " The time traveller's wife".The book was ,to me,so far so good.I think I will like the book.It speaks on the perspective of both the traveller(Henry) and his wife(Clare). It is rare in the way the story goes.Perhaps, u all can try it out.