I spent half the day walking around Orchard all by myself. I realised, it is not so intimidating afterall.

I enjoy the independence.

And I can really be on my own. To accomplish my goals on my own.

Its a great feeling to have at least a grp of friends whom you have some common points with...

You're allowed to be yourself, without having to think carefully before you speak and also, to laugh like nobody's business...

However, will the society changes everything when all of us are in the workplace?

Will we still be able to play the boardgames simple-ly without any agendas in the future?

Will we be able to just chat and give each other genuine advices without any comparisons with regards to the status, wealth...

Vit C's graduation came across my mind and am humming it...

I came across Yuhki Kuramoto's Romance on one of my freq website...Its soothing, and sad...

I'm getting too emotional =P

Lets enjoy the good sunny weather.

Have a nice day ahead :)

i am very angry with the BF lecturer. Very very.

Hmph!

I should be and ought to feel blissful.

I have a lot of wonderful things in life.

I am reaching out more.

At times, it is good to reach out and strive for more.

At times, I place too much emphasis on some areas that blinds me to see the bliss that is just in front of me.

Today, I hold the hand, which accompanies me through the last 1 yr and nine months. Giving my support, providing me a shoulder whenever I need it. It is this hand that hold me through the difficult moments during these periods. Not forgetting the care and concern showered by my loved ones. The owner of this hand, is holds me as the centre of his world, of which his world evolves around.

I ought to cherish all these.

Counting my blessings, and counting on...

I've forgotten I have a big big flaw.

The great reminder you've given me, makes me realize why I have been rejecting people.

Now I rmb. Its because of tt. And so, I cant receive people with open heart.

I may have hurt you.

But the hurt you inflicted this time is too great to be salvaged.

Its september. Lecturer said this september is going to pass by very fast.

I do not believe it, until now.

Late August, I was anticipating 2nd week of Sep where I'll be buying my phone and celebrating my
21st with my close ones. Now that Finance test is over, I begin to feel a bit of my freedom regaining. And I was shopping at Orchard ytd.

And I realised something suddenly, I'm gonne be immobilised soon, because exam in coming.

And I need to do the volunteer work as promised.

This sep is going to pass by real fast.

But it's gonna be a fulfilling and joyous one. :)

I am very fed up by the Capital budgeting.

Every of the textbook qns I did are wrong or partially wrong. WRONG WRONG WRONG!!!

And this makes me unable to move on and complete the qns.

And I have so many qns to ask my lecturer tt I doubt he wil have time to answer me consider the fact tt there are lotsa of others who are like me.


I AM VERY FRUSTRATED!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 projects per module have been driving me mad.

Email-ing and Research are what occupies me all day long.

Friend is not feeling well, hope she'll recover soon. She isn't she when she's sick.
Project discussion isn't fun without any of the four of us.

I dun have enough time to even watch Big MAMA.

I want to go wild wild wet, i wanna go songs of the sea.

I wanna go a lot of places...but I cant...argh!!!

I got to stay strong in order to sail through all these.

Smelly egg said I still got a lifetime ahead of me, so all these are gonna make me become stronger!

Whatever doesn't kills me makes me stronger!

Tough times don't last, tough woman last!!!

Just came back from tuition, but I got blown away cox the student tot tuition was at 7pm and she got home at 5pm, when the tuition was supposed to be at 5pm.

So, I foolishly ring the doorbell, many times and waited.

In the endm after everything was cleared up, I went off to eat my wonderful dinner at lib. Nice and healthy dinner :)

And I got my purple specs:)

And I think my long time no see friend is too shy to meet up w me! U shld know who u are! haha.

And I'm panicking now cox I think i got the wrong direction for my project!!!


ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Where can I find Hot Coffee Ginger Chews?

I am not getting normal.

I took the spoon which was meant for stirring the coffee to the living room.

I almost put my hp to my ears thinking I'm calling or answering a call when I actually wanted to see a sms.

I need to take a break under the sun.

I need fresh air too to clear my mind.

Hoo~

Am I too stressed?

Or am I sick?

I'm craving for carbs, and I had them for 2 meals today.

I still longed to enjoy many different cakes.

I still want to enjoy many different types of cuisine.

I still want to enjoy many gatherings at different new places with my friends.

I still want to enjoy listening to different music.

I'm on my journey of life.

And I'm doing all these with one person absent.

Its summer!!!

Lets bask in the sun!!!

:)

It felt so terrible. It feels like running away.

Life isn't supposed to be like tt.

Its not abt pleasing pple, cracking ur brains to find ways to get pple's attention.

Some pple just do not meant to be, even when u tried all means.

And it feels so unreal now. But Im finally awake.

Im quiet not because Im shy. Its because some are not worth my effort to talk to them.

I am very pissed off, by passive pple.

Its time to wake up my senses.

I have one friend less.

Good Riddance this time.

Hi Everyone!!!

Allow me to remind all of u one simple thing:

Count your blessings.

Count my blessings :)

Look what you've done.

Look what I've done.

@$^P#$TO$# "OW{R O{#R%#"WQ R

I had a 2 friends.

I known them since kindergarten.

Coincidentally, we were in the same class till primary six.

As we grow up, one of them became very smart and made it to the local uni.

However, personality was not the same anymore.

Now tt I turned to this personality, this friend became otherwise.

The other one, I lost contact ever since secondary days.

During JC, I came to know that he was coindentally, in the same class as my sec sch friend.

Nonetheless, I didn't cherish the chance for a catch up.

Now, I tot I had the chance to catch up with this friend.

Yet, I was wrong. He is serving NS now. I foolishly tot tt I could have a meet up.

Everything was so stranger btw us.

He is the only childhood friend which did not take advtg of me. (Dun think otherwise)

I was the one who always bully him whenever I can.

When the timing was over, it can't be turn back.

I should have known it better.

People are impt.

Cherish while we still can.

But I'm afraid I can't hold on to some.

Cycling today at ecp

Saw big and clear aeroplanes.

Tanned.

Energetic, cox of Tay Ping Hui-effect. !!!! HAHA!

I woke up at 6.58am.

And I dreamt of Tay Ping Hui.

Cool! hehe

It feels like the whole world is revolving, and I'm watching it revolving.

It felt awful.

And, I dislike waiting more than anything else, except that disgusting beast-being thing.

The rustling of the winds brought by the cycling and blading tmr will ease all the disgusts.

I feel so worthless.

So long as he dies, I'll celebrate like nobody's business.

Everyone will live life carefree'ier, safer.

The world will be freed of one villian, one criminal.

Pls hear this. Let him, this bastard and this disgusting shit in the disguise of man, die asap.

When friends are longer a keeper, pointless in holding on.

Today marks the day of a rid of tt "friend". Good riddance.

I got so sad while listening to this song...

Best of me--Daniel Powter

I wasn't mean the wrong way
Won't you do me the right way
Where you gonna be tonight
Coz I won't stay too long

Maybe you're the light for me
When you talk to me it strikes me
Won't somebody help me
Coz I don't feel too strong

Was there something that I said
Was there something that I did
Or the combination I broke that did me have

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that some of us spin again
When you do you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And I hate the thought finally been erased
Baby that's the best of me

Everything's behind you
But the whole place signs besides you
Living in every moment
Have I wasted all your time

Was there something that I said
Was there something that I did
Or the combination I broke that did me have

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that some of us spin again
When you do you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And I hate the thought been erased
Baby that's the best of me

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that someone those spin again
When you do you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And I hate the thought finally been erased
Baby that's the best of me

btw, wen yan, tell me how to get to your blog ok? Cox of the invite thingy :)

Feeling very unwell... and feel like crying...im not a whimpy for feeling like crying, just tt everyone has their own way of relieving, and I happen to want to do tt at this time.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Met bestie ytd, satisfying! Talk abt lot of things, but they all surround our bf!!!

Meet smelly egg today also. Tried the Nutty Chocolate Craze at Gelare, satisfying :) My phone was spoilt, so the photos are with him now. The ice cream was okay, but the fresh cream irks me. After tt we went esplanade to listen to some local singer singing those songs that she composed. I have no idea what she's singing, nor the song title, though her voice was really good. I can see myself singing her songs too in future shld she make a good prospects out of this.

I easily irritated nowadays, and its frustrating because I have no idea whats behind tt. Its definitely not PMS.

Oh ya, I tried making the no-bake cheesecake last week. The result was extreme. Those who tried it commented tt either it was nice or it was awful. The key lies in the yoghurt added, haha.

Now I'm going on to the next baked stuff. Will show all when its successful.

I'm not sure whether the others felt the same as me.

After exam, finding a job. Any job will do for them. Be it promoter, call centre, internships. I'm afraid, if I do not start doing the things tt I truly wanted to. I might never have the passion and energy to start them. All of them outside, they found their dreams, their forte and are now on their way to them. Some others, they only talk abt it, think what they wanna do. But I didnt see them putting real action into it.

Before exams, I thought of many many things tt I wanna do after exam. After exam, the reality sinks in and makes me develop doubts about the things I wish to achieve during this break.

People are just too scary for me to handle them. Esp women, with hidden agenda!

Since he mentioned I've always put on bad events on the blog instead of the good ones, I shall put some on now.

He is my best friend.
I could bitch everything I was unhappy about to him.
He saw all my embarrassing moments. Happy moments too.
I can be myself around him. And even carefree'ier in front of him.
He knows me better than I do.
He likes singing songs to me. Even took the trouble of recording his live "Elmo" and mms me when I was feeling terrible.


He is like a boy.
At his age, his thinking is sometimes naive and childish. hehe


He is responsible and filial to his parents, though sometimes he is very stubborn and hot-tempered.
He is willing to spend on all the people he cares for, putting himself at the last.

Although he only start to think seriously at this age, its better than nth :)

And he's growing stronger, cox his arm can barely fit into his shirt. Now whats left is a sun tan to make him look better :)

Having him saves me the worrying of losing my way, and I like to explore ulu places with him, which we always do :)
There's a feeling of ease to be with him, cox he has no agenda. Except for some emo-ing, as I said, he is STILL a boy, at his age.

Though the route now seems long and curvy for we can't see the end, but I think we'll reach there soon.

I am so demoralise and low in confidence now...

I need my chicken soup.

I need 100 GB memory size.

I need a body needing only 2 hours of sleep a day.

I need a face tts resistant to black eye rings and dull complexion.

I need a day without sunset!!!

I need a body without the need to settle meals and answer the call of nature and not smelling bad after a day!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here I am, thinking I have a lot of time to blog here instead of studying for exam. I'm on the verge of bouncing back soon if I dun step back slightly.

I had a famous "korea set meal" for lunch today, but it was by no means, Aw...ful. The rice is not hot, the veg are not cooked properly, the environment is...cramp and dunno-whether-its-hygenic. I'm not picky, just tt I'm concerned about the food I put into my mouth.

Oh ya, the most interesting thing was dropping the chicken onto smelly egg's hand, then onto his hand, then onto the floor; while in an attempt to pass him the chicken tt i cant finish.

How interesting.

I wanna see movie, walk along suntec, marina, and sitting at esplanade with the lightings from the commercial buildings, talking to smelly egg like there's no rush to anywhere...

Its so late...smelly egg went to his dreamland already cox I'm preoccupied with my SQ!

No doubt we've finish it three weeks ago...but there are ethics, marcom and AMCA projects...all so hectic tt i've barely have time to compile and edit my sq...

Finally, after much struggle, I finished the compiling and editing!

All tts left is print and bind!

WooHoo~

Not to mention the 5000 +++++ words to cut!

And its done!!!

What an achievements...

Special thanks to those who help out :)

Now, its my turn to hit the bed!!!

I'm so irritated by the project. I have a hard time cutting the words. And I'm like reading abt flyer and cutting the words abt flyer. Its just so annoying!!!

At the end of the project, Spore Flyer could hire me to advise them abt improvements they could made...


ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm tired. And I'm stressed.

But I'm reminded to PUT MY GLASS DOWN.

So, I reckon I'll not have insomnia tonight.

I feel sick in the afternoon...


And it got better....


After hearing a news in the evening...


I feel like crying.


I just feel like shouting, "ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"


Why can't he be stronger and be more protectant of us, tt way I won't be feeling so insecure now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

While I was reading, I was so distracted I went to compile my project, while compiling, I got distracted again and so I went to look at one of the site that I frequent...

Source: http://www.auntyyochana.blogspot.com/

And I saw this...As I scroll down more...

Source: http://www.auntyyochana.blogspot.com/

I saw this!!! I cannot resist it anymore!

I'm so craving for chocolate, and cake and crossaint!

Oh, recently I learnt tt the actually pronounciation for crossaint is "Qua S on" not "Cro s on"! Interesting...

I wanna eat cake and crossaint and chocolate!

I'm so tired and finally the Appendix for outdoor media is uploaded!!!


I can go to sleep now!!!!!



Sleep, so treasured and precious to me now!!!

Sometimes its just bloody irritating to stay at home. Especially when ur pressence doesn't make a diff. You dun even feel like you have the basic level of dignity and respect from pple. Whats the use of staying then?

Smelly Egg inspires mw with this sometime ago with this quote, " Tough times don't last, tough man do."

From the ethics pt of view, according to Socrates or Plato or whichever ancient philosopher, the purpose of woman in the past is just a child-bearing being. Note, its a being.

Now, we're in the 21st century, we shall now forget abt the theories of Socrates, Plato and Aristotle.


Tough times dont't last, tough man do, tough woman even will.


YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LETS CHEER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FOR ALL THE GOOD THINGS IN YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dun like YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anybody who's gonna give me another exclaimation is gonna GET IT FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


WHAT THE HECK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everything seems so great initially. Be it making friends, going into a relationship or playing a game, eating a nice chocolate ice-cream cone.


When things get on to the middle stage, u begin to see the true colours of the friends u think are so great initially, u understand what ur gf or bf is actually like, u find the game level is hard to attain, and the melting chocolate ice-cream cone is beginning to make ur fingers dirty.

The decision made here is, whether u want to continue with what you've done or achieve so far or u want to continue to find ways to deal with it.

Why cant some things be as simple and clear. The society is already filling us with traumas and insecurities. Why cant there be a space, place or even somebody we can find comfort in, whereby we dun have to worry about getting disappointments or unhappiness cox it will always be there, like a tree. Giving u comfort and back-up whenever u are tired.

Sadly speaking, there is nth so good in this world.

If we cant deal with it, we can only be dealt with.


To survive, just keep fighting.

I'm feeling so upset now.

I'm sick while I try all means and ways to prevent it.

I'm piled up with tonnes and messy and confusing project assignments.

And I feel like I'm the worst daughter and gf.

I just want a getaway.

I just can't help crying now.

I'm just so tired and shagged from everything.

And I haven't found the solution yet.

I'm just tired.

This yr's v-day could be one of the most memorable..or shld I say, the most unforgettable occasion smelly egg and I had so far during this one year r/s...

Last yr was simply too pathetic...shall not spell it out...

This yr's totally diff!

Smelly egg actually had plans one week before it and I totally have no ideas what he was planning...

So ytd, he make me starve the morning coz he had "prepared breakfast" for me, which later turned out to be this!!!

Chocolate fudge cake...yummy!!! And I ate 2 slices!!!

Later on, I discovered the Build-a-bear Bear bucks underneath the cake!!!

OMG!!! hehe...

So no doubt, after tt we went Vivo to build my bear ...

Before building, we actually planned to settle dinner at BK, but it was so packed...Having too stubborn cox I really wanted to eat their tendergrill, I made the both of us loiter outside BK while waiting for this couple to finish their lovey-dovey(they already finish their meal!)...we finally had a seat after tt!!! Under my stubborness!

Ok, so , comes the awaited building of bear...the shop was so bustling w pple! So filled with excited pple who keep changing their bears in and out with clothes! So am I!!!

The staff made smelly egg do silly things like " If you want ur gf and the bear to be full and not starving, choose a heart and rub it on ur stomach, rub on the bear's stomach and ur gf's stomach and jump three times"!!!

And he did!!! Its so embarrassing!!!

After difficult choice over the bear's clothings, my bear finally emerge!!!

And its birth cert...

After tt, I happily carry the bear in its box and we went to Sentosa. We happened to sit on the side of the beach beside the place where they had the Song of the Sea going on...and we saw fireworks!!!

OMG!!! Tts the nearest distance I've come to see fireworks and its splendid!!! Oh my, its simply very beautiful!!!

With the breezes of the sea and sa-sha of waves...we end v-day on a happy note :)

And I'm carrying my bear bear in my arms while typing this post...

I'm just so addicted to this song tt's playing on my blog...


I have to listen to it before I start working on my assignments!

Lucky~

Jason Mraz Lyrics

Although I just ate this ytd, but I still miss it.

Can I have a year's supply of kueh lapis???

And this...apple crumble pie anyone??? :( I want to eat !!!

I'm just gonna say %&*I*P)}(*^%%$#$#C F H XL:AP((*&^Y%A$S#%$#$A%&S&*)KS ASI(A^%S%$A#%S^AOSPAPSUYIUA^S&^AS^A(.


This displays my frustration towards pple now.Dun think u r the only one stress.What u have on ur hands is lesser compared to mine.

I watched "Underworld-Rise of the Lycans". Satisfying! Its nice, action-pac and its romantic =) Oh, and its sad. Projects have been tonning and there isn't much time left for me and smelly egg. Ever since CNY, we've not gone out much. He meets to accompany me study while he read his book quietly beside me, if not, to print notes. Today is the only day we can at least watch a movie. So, it was cherished very much by both of us.

Pple ard me have been doing things pretty fast. It seem to me tt either they are all very efficient, if not, they're camp at home buried under projects without a life. Am I too much to catch a simple movie? Or am I slow???


After deep thinking, I've come up with a conclusion. I'm not slow. So, u guys know what I mean!!!

Every time I found sth I like. It will not be long lasting. Tts why I nv admit I like anything.
Now tt I admitted sth tt I like. Its gonna leave me.Pple take things for granted. I take pple for granted, pple took me for granted.I began to feel frustrated again.Just that its more serious this time.I finally break down ytd, and threw everything on my table. Sit down on the floor with my knees in my arms and cry.Nobody's taking me seriously anyway.I scolded mean things to somebody in the past.And tt person did it to me today.It hurts.Tt person must have hurt too in the past.I wonder how tt person tolerated.But I couldn't get over it.Tt person said this before,"What's pass is past".But this time is different.I rmb the past.He sworn it.Its over.

Sometimes when u feel like u can trust somebody, u actually cannot.


This person will do sth behind ur back. Until somebody reveals sth to u, then u'll realise u've been naive to believe tt u two r relying on each other.


Actual fact, the person fend for "itself".


U r nobody to tt person.


SO in a nut shell, stay away from tt person.


If forced by circumstances, u cant.



Then put on a mask.


Afterall, tts what the person did to u.


Tt person is pathetic afterall.


Cox this person will always be treated as a jackass in my heart forever.


Sad for "it".

I just feel useless and helpless.


I feel very down right now. And I just wanna cry it out.

Tmr's CNY! And today's reunion dinner night. =)

Im going to Sentosa Flowers on tue!!! And I'm so gonna enter the "Magic Moments" Online Digital Photography Competition!!! But I haven used a digital cam in my life though there's one at home. Nevertheless, I'm gonna "tiao zhan gao nan du" (Take up the tough challenge) Hehe.

Ooh!!! Happy Chinese New Year!

I bet its Flowers all over the world tonight!

I suddenly rmb how this person treats me last year.


I shuddered at the fact tt I'm still friendly to her.


Am I becoming like this person or am I too forgetful?

How many more pple are going to fall for this person's trap?

I'm not gonna say anything, hopefully these PPLE will understand one day.

Anyways. I only have one feeling now.

Life shouldn't be like this.


We shld be able to take charge because this is OUR life.


We shld know what's our priority. We need to make cuts and do things which are more impt at this very moment. All the rest can wait. Since we haven been doing sth for so long, it doesn't matter if we put it off for a period of time. The moment is over for tt. We need to look forward now. More impt things are waiting for me to do. Throwing temper and act crazy won't solve anything.


The impt thing now is to TAKE CHARGE!!!

What do I do? Which one do I do first???

Im completely out of control!

I wanna go ECP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need the breeze to calm me down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't want to feel so full right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know what I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just like muffins. OK!?

Is it the fact that Im not rich therefore, I'm missing out things in life?





Or is it the fact that I'm not outgoing or sociable as others, and so I'm missing out things in life?





Or rather, is it the fact that I dun understand myself and so I'm holding things that r not supposed to continue?





Is it that Im no longer the person pple see me in the past that I MUST see that what others see me now of me??





Or is it that I'm not confidence and swishy-swashy so I'm missing out ALL the things I would like to have and not envy pple whenever I happened to see the things I yearned for on others???





BottomLine:



I have no aims in life. Or rather, my aims are too vague unless I sit down and draw out a plan.





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I've finished Twilight ages ago,and now on new moon, but it wasn't as expected. So, I skip to the back where the interesting parts are. In my situation now, I dun have the luxury of reading and enjoying every part now, where its boring or long-winded ones, before it reaches the climax of tt book. Do all of u understand what I'm talking abt? Whichever, I'm writing cox I feel like.





FYI, I'm imbalance.Right now.





Can I have more time and passion now?





So i can have more time to spare.





Im so frustrated and helpless over AMCA. How do I study without a textbook?





I just feel like swearing now.





KNS!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





Don't come ask me I'm ok or not. Cox anyone w common sense can see I AM NOT!

Such a peaceful afternoon, simply relaxing and windy...


Hopefully this peacefulness prolongs, even after my father comes back...


Tada

Its the start of the school and I'm feeling imbalance. I feel sad and there's nth to do with it.

The fact is I dunno what I want and things just come too fast before I can react.

The foreign lecturer has no main point when he's speaking and I cant catch what others r able to catch. And Im frustrated.

When things just dun come ur way, u cant just sit down there and accept it. Make changes and make sure things go Ur way.

Come on, go get a life pple! But dun lost ur way!!!