When friends are longer a keeper, pointless in holding on.

Today marks the day of a rid of tt "friend". Good riddance.

I got so sad while listening to this song...

Best of me--Daniel Powter

I wasn't mean the wrong way
Won't you do me the right way
Where you gonna be tonight
Coz I won't stay too long

Maybe you're the light for me
When you talk to me it strikes me
Won't somebody help me
Coz I don't feel too strong

Was there something that I said
Was there something that I did
Or the combination I broke that did me have

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that some of us spin again
When you do you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And I hate the thought finally been erased
Baby that's the best of me

Everything's behind you
But the whole place signs besides you
Living in every moment
Have I wasted all your time

Was there something that I said
Was there something that I did
Or the combination I broke that did me have

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that some of us spin again
When you do you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And I hate the thought been erased
Baby that's the best of me

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that someone those spin again
When you do you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And I hate the thought finally been erased
Baby that's the best of me

btw, wen yan, tell me how to get to your blog ok? Cox of the invite thingy :)

Feeling very unwell... and feel like crying...im not a whimpy for feeling like crying, just tt everyone has their own way of relieving, and I happen to want to do tt at this time.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Met bestie ytd, satisfying! Talk abt lot of things, but they all surround our bf!!!

Meet smelly egg today also. Tried the Nutty Chocolate Craze at Gelare, satisfying :) My phone was spoilt, so the photos are with him now. The ice cream was okay, but the fresh cream irks me. After tt we went esplanade to listen to some local singer singing those songs that she composed. I have no idea what she's singing, nor the song title, though her voice was really good. I can see myself singing her songs too in future shld she make a good prospects out of this.

I easily irritated nowadays, and its frustrating because I have no idea whats behind tt. Its definitely not PMS.

Oh ya, I tried making the no-bake cheesecake last week. The result was extreme. Those who tried it commented tt either it was nice or it was awful. The key lies in the yoghurt added, haha.

Now I'm going on to the next baked stuff. Will show all when its successful.

I'm not sure whether the others felt the same as me.

After exam, finding a job. Any job will do for them. Be it promoter, call centre, internships. I'm afraid, if I do not start doing the things tt I truly wanted to. I might never have the passion and energy to start them. All of them outside, they found their dreams, their forte and are now on their way to them. Some others, they only talk abt it, think what they wanna do. But I didnt see them putting real action into it.

Before exams, I thought of many many things tt I wanna do after exam. After exam, the reality sinks in and makes me develop doubts about the things I wish to achieve during this break.

People are just too scary for me to handle them. Esp women, with hidden agenda!

Since he mentioned I've always put on bad events on the blog instead of the good ones, I shall put some on now.

He is my best friend.
I could bitch everything I was unhappy about to him.
He saw all my embarrassing moments. Happy moments too.
I can be myself around him. And even carefree'ier in front of him.
He knows me better than I do.
He likes singing songs to me. Even took the trouble of recording his live "Elmo" and mms me when I was feeling terrible.


He is like a boy.
At his age, his thinking is sometimes naive and childish. hehe


He is responsible and filial to his parents, though sometimes he is very stubborn and hot-tempered.
He is willing to spend on all the people he cares for, putting himself at the last.

Although he only start to think seriously at this age, its better than nth :)

And he's growing stronger, cox his arm can barely fit into his shirt. Now whats left is a sun tan to make him look better :)

Having him saves me the worrying of losing my way, and I like to explore ulu places with him, which we always do :)
There's a feeling of ease to be with him, cox he has no agenda. Except for some emo-ing, as I said, he is STILL a boy, at his age.

Though the route now seems long and curvy for we can't see the end, but I think we'll reach there soon.

I am so demoralise and low in confidence now...

I need my chicken soup.

I need 100 GB memory size.

I need a body needing only 2 hours of sleep a day.

I need a face tts resistant to black eye rings and dull complexion.

I need a day without sunset!!!

I need a body without the need to settle meals and answer the call of nature and not smelling bad after a day!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here I am, thinking I have a lot of time to blog here instead of studying for exam. I'm on the verge of bouncing back soon if I dun step back slightly.

I had a famous "korea set meal" for lunch today, but it was by no means, Aw...ful. The rice is not hot, the veg are not cooked properly, the environment is...cramp and dunno-whether-its-hygenic. I'm not picky, just tt I'm concerned about the food I put into my mouth.

Oh ya, the most interesting thing was dropping the chicken onto smelly egg's hand, then onto his hand, then onto the floor; while in an attempt to pass him the chicken tt i cant finish.

How interesting.

I wanna see movie, walk along suntec, marina, and sitting at esplanade with the lightings from the commercial buildings, talking to smelly egg like there's no rush to anywhere...

Its so late...smelly egg went to his dreamland already cox I'm preoccupied with my SQ!

No doubt we've finish it three weeks ago...but there are ethics, marcom and AMCA projects...all so hectic tt i've barely have time to compile and edit my sq...

Finally, after much struggle, I finished the compiling and editing!

All tts left is print and bind!

WooHoo~

Not to mention the 5000 +++++ words to cut!

And its done!!!

What an achievements...

Special thanks to those who help out :)

Now, its my turn to hit the bed!!!

I'm so irritated by the project. I have a hard time cutting the words. And I'm like reading abt flyer and cutting the words abt flyer. Its just so annoying!!!

At the end of the project, Spore Flyer could hire me to advise them abt improvements they could made...


ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm tired. And I'm stressed.

But I'm reminded to PUT MY GLASS DOWN.

So, I reckon I'll not have insomnia tonight.

I feel sick in the afternoon...


And it got better....


After hearing a news in the evening...


I feel like crying.


I just feel like shouting, "ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"


Why can't he be stronger and be more protectant of us, tt way I won't be feeling so insecure now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

While I was reading, I was so distracted I went to compile my project, while compiling, I got distracted again and so I went to look at one of the site that I frequent...

Source: http://www.auntyyochana.blogspot.com/

And I saw this...As I scroll down more...

Source: http://www.auntyyochana.blogspot.com/

I saw this!!! I cannot resist it anymore!

I'm so craving for chocolate, and cake and crossaint!

Oh, recently I learnt tt the actually pronounciation for crossaint is "Qua S on" not "Cro s on"! Interesting...

I wanna eat cake and crossaint and chocolate!

I'm so tired and finally the Appendix for outdoor media is uploaded!!!


I can go to sleep now!!!!!



Sleep, so treasured and precious to me now!!!

Sometimes its just bloody irritating to stay at home. Especially when ur pressence doesn't make a diff. You dun even feel like you have the basic level of dignity and respect from pple. Whats the use of staying then?

Smelly Egg inspires mw with this sometime ago with this quote, " Tough times don't last, tough man do."

From the ethics pt of view, according to Socrates or Plato or whichever ancient philosopher, the purpose of woman in the past is just a child-bearing being. Note, its a being.

Now, we're in the 21st century, we shall now forget abt the theories of Socrates, Plato and Aristotle.


Tough times dont't last, tough man do, tough woman even will.


YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LETS CHEER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FOR ALL THE GOOD THINGS IN YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dun like YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anybody who's gonna give me another exclaimation is gonna GET IT FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


WHAT THE HECK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everything seems so great initially. Be it making friends, going into a relationship or playing a game, eating a nice chocolate ice-cream cone.


When things get on to the middle stage, u begin to see the true colours of the friends u think are so great initially, u understand what ur gf or bf is actually like, u find the game level is hard to attain, and the melting chocolate ice-cream cone is beginning to make ur fingers dirty.

The decision made here is, whether u want to continue with what you've done or achieve so far or u want to continue to find ways to deal with it.

Why cant some things be as simple and clear. The society is already filling us with traumas and insecurities. Why cant there be a space, place or even somebody we can find comfort in, whereby we dun have to worry about getting disappointments or unhappiness cox it will always be there, like a tree. Giving u comfort and back-up whenever u are tired.

Sadly speaking, there is nth so good in this world.

If we cant deal with it, we can only be dealt with.


To survive, just keep fighting.

I'm feeling so upset now.

I'm sick while I try all means and ways to prevent it.

I'm piled up with tonnes and messy and confusing project assignments.

And I feel like I'm the worst daughter and gf.

I just want a getaway.

I just can't help crying now.

I'm just so tired and shagged from everything.

And I haven't found the solution yet.

I'm just tired.