It felt so terrible. It feels like running away.

Life isn't supposed to be like tt.

Its not abt pleasing pple, cracking ur brains to find ways to get pple's attention.

Some pple just do not meant to be, even when u tried all means.

And it feels so unreal now. But Im finally awake.

Im quiet not because Im shy. Its because some are not worth my effort to talk to them.

I am very pissed off, by passive pple.

Its time to wake up my senses.

I have one friend less.

Good Riddance this time.

Hi Everyone!!!

Allow me to remind all of u one simple thing:

Count your blessings.

Count my blessings :)

Look what you've done.

Look what I've done.

@$^P#$TO$# "OW{R O{#R%#"WQ R

I had a 2 friends.

I known them since kindergarten.

Coincidentally, we were in the same class till primary six.

As we grow up, one of them became very smart and made it to the local uni.

However, personality was not the same anymore.

Now tt I turned to this personality, this friend became otherwise.

The other one, I lost contact ever since secondary days.

During JC, I came to know that he was coindentally, in the same class as my sec sch friend.

Nonetheless, I didn't cherish the chance for a catch up.

Now, I tot I had the chance to catch up with this friend.

Yet, I was wrong. He is serving NS now. I foolishly tot tt I could have a meet up.

Everything was so stranger btw us.

He is the only childhood friend which did not take advtg of me. (Dun think otherwise)

I was the one who always bully him whenever I can.

When the timing was over, it can't be turn back.

I should have known it better.

People are impt.

Cherish while we still can.

But I'm afraid I can't hold on to some.

Cycling today at ecp

Saw big and clear aeroplanes.

Tanned.

Energetic, cox of Tay Ping Hui-effect. !!!! HAHA!

I woke up at 6.58am.

And I dreamt of Tay Ping Hui.

Cool! hehe

It feels like the whole world is revolving, and I'm watching it revolving.

It felt awful.

And, I dislike waiting more than anything else, except that disgusting beast-being thing.

The rustling of the winds brought by the cycling and blading tmr will ease all the disgusts.

I feel so worthless.

So long as he dies, I'll celebrate like nobody's business.

Everyone will live life carefree'ier, safer.

The world will be freed of one villian, one criminal.

Pls hear this. Let him, this bastard and this disgusting shit in the disguise of man, die asap.

When friends are longer a keeper, pointless in holding on.

Today marks the day of a rid of tt "friend". Good riddance.

I got so sad while listening to this song...

Best of me--Daniel Powter

I wasn't mean the wrong way
Won't you do me the right way
Where you gonna be tonight
Coz I won't stay too long

Maybe you're the light for me
When you talk to me it strikes me
Won't somebody help me
Coz I don't feel too strong

Was there something that I said
Was there something that I did
Or the combination I broke that did me have

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that some of us spin again
When you do you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And I hate the thought finally been erased
Baby that's the best of me

Everything's behind you
But the whole place signs besides you
Living in every moment
Have I wasted all your time

Was there something that I said
Was there something that I did
Or the combination I broke that did me have

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that some of us spin again
When you do you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And I hate the thought been erased
Baby that's the best of me

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that someone those spin again
When you do you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And I hate the thought finally been erased
Baby that's the best of me

btw, wen yan, tell me how to get to your blog ok? Cox of the invite thingy :)

Feeling very unwell... and feel like crying...im not a whimpy for feeling like crying, just tt everyone has their own way of relieving, and I happen to want to do tt at this time.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Met bestie ytd, satisfying! Talk abt lot of things, but they all surround our bf!!!

Meet smelly egg today also. Tried the Nutty Chocolate Craze at Gelare, satisfying :) My phone was spoilt, so the photos are with him now. The ice cream was okay, but the fresh cream irks me. After tt we went esplanade to listen to some local singer singing those songs that she composed. I have no idea what she's singing, nor the song title, though her voice was really good. I can see myself singing her songs too in future shld she make a good prospects out of this.

I easily irritated nowadays, and its frustrating because I have no idea whats behind tt. Its definitely not PMS.

Oh ya, I tried making the no-bake cheesecake last week. The result was extreme. Those who tried it commented tt either it was nice or it was awful. The key lies in the yoghurt added, haha.

Now I'm going on to the next baked stuff. Will show all when its successful.

I'm not sure whether the others felt the same as me.

After exam, finding a job. Any job will do for them. Be it promoter, call centre, internships. I'm afraid, if I do not start doing the things tt I truly wanted to. I might never have the passion and energy to start them. All of them outside, they found their dreams, their forte and are now on their way to them. Some others, they only talk abt it, think what they wanna do. But I didnt see them putting real action into it.

Before exams, I thought of many many things tt I wanna do after exam. After exam, the reality sinks in and makes me develop doubts about the things I wish to achieve during this break.

People are just too scary for me to handle them. Esp women, with hidden agenda!

Since he mentioned I've always put on bad events on the blog instead of the good ones, I shall put some on now.

He is my best friend.
I could bitch everything I was unhappy about to him.
He saw all my embarrassing moments. Happy moments too.
I can be myself around him. And even carefree'ier in front of him.
He knows me better than I do.
He likes singing songs to me. Even took the trouble of recording his live "Elmo" and mms me when I was feeling terrible.


He is like a boy.
At his age, his thinking is sometimes naive and childish. hehe


He is responsible and filial to his parents, though sometimes he is very stubborn and hot-tempered.
He is willing to spend on all the people he cares for, putting himself at the last.

Although he only start to think seriously at this age, its better than nth :)

And he's growing stronger, cox his arm can barely fit into his shirt. Now whats left is a sun tan to make him look better :)

Having him saves me the worrying of losing my way, and I like to explore ulu places with him, which we always do :)
There's a feeling of ease to be with him, cox he has no agenda. Except for some emo-ing, as I said, he is STILL a boy, at his age.

Though the route now seems long and curvy for we can't see the end, but I think we'll reach there soon.

I am so demoralise and low in confidence now...

I need my chicken soup.

I need 100 GB memory size.

I need a body needing only 2 hours of sleep a day.

I need a face tts resistant to black eye rings and dull complexion.

I need a day without sunset!!!

I need a body without the need to settle meals and answer the call of nature and not smelling bad after a day!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here I am, thinking I have a lot of time to blog here instead of studying for exam. I'm on the verge of bouncing back soon if I dun step back slightly.

I had a famous "korea set meal" for lunch today, but it was by no means, Aw...ful. The rice is not hot, the veg are not cooked properly, the environment is...cramp and dunno-whether-its-hygenic. I'm not picky, just tt I'm concerned about the food I put into my mouth.

Oh ya, the most interesting thing was dropping the chicken onto smelly egg's hand, then onto his hand, then onto the floor; while in an attempt to pass him the chicken tt i cant finish.

How interesting.

I wanna see movie, walk along suntec, marina, and sitting at esplanade with the lightings from the commercial buildings, talking to smelly egg like there's no rush to anywhere...