This morning was a stupid morning for me. This is dunno the XXXX time that I got trapped outside my house.Lets just talk abt the V. previous time,which is only last week,I got trapped because I forgot to bring my keys when I actually rmb to bring my brolly.This time,yes,its today,guess what?I did bring my KEYS!And I stupidly turn the knob to the left instead of the right,and my door got locked from inside!BEST! Nobodys at home so I got to wait!The longest record was probably 1.5 hours,today was better,waited 1 hr.

I'm going school next mon!!!!!!!!!!I'm so excited and anxious and nervous....Though its not the school I want but At least theres a school for me.Heard that its quite difficult to make frenz cuz everyone's like got their own frenz and everyone just disappear aft lectures.The only to is to join CCA.But I guess I dun have time to join...My frenz told me that Student Council is v. competitive...and Im thinking of joining coz it looks good on your resume but,involves a lot of commitment...Im also thinking of singing club,sounds simple ,more relax?Not too sure,lets wait for everything to settle down when I got into school first...

Just got my lecture schedule today...next week start lesson and I have to study from mon all the way to SAT!omg,whats this manx!its worst than JC.When I think of joining none of the CCAs,my frenz are joining more than one ...sick...now that the timetable is so packed,I have to even drop one of my tuitions ...less money to earn,hmphz!

These make up my mind to enjoy this freely last week of life...at least for this coming three years...sob*

Feeling so tired now...my eyes are drooling..anyway,have been buying lotsa stuffs for the past few days,four tops,2 pairs of shoes and a bag from far east and bugis ,v. happy coz i like all the stuffs i bought...but coz a lot seh.I actually wanna post the pictures in this blog,but on second thought,I'm tired to do so..hahaz.Im going school in a week's time,but ,the school haven send us the schedule for our lesson.good!And, I'm using my laptop to blog now!I'm finally having my own laptop...but its not as excited as I thought I will hahax...is this some kind of paradox or something?whatever,btw,FRENZ,help keep my blog alive by taggin k?CYA!

Hmm,its been a long time since I've updated my blog and since I've also remove the tagboard, I really have no idea how many pple are reading my blog...
Anyway, time flies, I'm going uni in 30th july. So fast...No idea how the life would be when we're in uni...but I still need to try hard to accommodate...Uni is so vague and the pple inside are all ,inter-related?How comw they seem to know everyone else in the LT. Whatever.A friend mentioned tt never trust and rely on a single friend cuz u dunno what will happen the very next moment,and thus we need to enlarge our social circle. Guess it makes sense.I'm so used to doing nth and relaxing at my home. Although I teach tuitions, but tts only in the night and on weekends...(im having 5 students and im teaching each of them every night k,even on weekends, Im not a free-loader)Wld I be used to the life in uni?I think my luck is so damn not gd, I always got myself into schs with none of my frenz inside...like YJC, wld anyone be so stupid to crash into a sch in Yishun when she's living in Bt panjang??And, none of my frenz,or anyone in my sec sch enter the sch...haiz.I'm always so alone!!!But I have one v. habit,I will only get real worried a few days before the actual event happens...so, I'm gonna enjoy the remaining half a month's schoolesss(spelt like tt?) days...hahz.And I'm gonna revive my tagboard so my blog will be slightly lively...Enough of the grumbling...Something happened when I was teaching tuition this morning,I actually had the power to make pple cry?!?While I was teaching my student spelling, I(smilingly) told her to stand up to spell,so tt i can make her slightly serious and awake..Guess what happened?After she sat down, she actually cry?!?Wow?am i what?tigress or what?And I still need to wipe her tears and coaxed her ...what have I done?And when her mum ask y she cry?she said nth.I wld have said the same ,coz her mum was practically scolding her on why she cant even spell simple wrdz like CAR??And her mum was so fierce tt I was almost intimidated by her...WTH.

I'm looking forward to fri though...

Looking at the pple trying to find out what their past life is, to satisfy my curiosity, I did the test.

Its goes like this:

You were female in your last earthly incarnation.

You were born somewhere in the territory of modern USA North-East around the year 1075.

Your profession was that of a farmer, weaver or tailor.

Seeker of truth and wisdom.

You could have seen your future lives.

Others perceived you as an idealist illuminating path to future.

Your lesson is to develop a kind attitude towards people, and to acquire the gift of understanding and compassion.

Do you remember now?

I absolutely don't remember...anything...

hello pple, my blog have been so deserted that spiders webs gonna appear...anyway,these few weeks my schedule have been quite hectic.First there is the applying of bank loan and termination of bank loan...second,there is the preparing of tuition materials for my students but these few days are quite relax coz some of the students' parents decided to stop the tuition for a while during the hols to let their kids to rest...hmmm,another thing,my school gonna start soon but i will try to enjoy this long break and recharge myself for the upcoming school days!gtg and prepare stuffs for tuitions agn...cya pple

DAMN IT !

I am so DAMN ANGRY!
I AM so DAMN UPSET !
I AM SO DAMN STRESS!
I AM SO DAMN HELPLESS!
SO DAMN USELESS!
SO DAMN BORING!
THat invisible hand thats manipulating my life,just GO AWAY!
Isn't that lesson enough to pay the price of my mistake?!?
Haven't I done enough to pay for it?I am paying now SO please give me back the life I've always lead 7 years ago!!!!!!

I found this Very nice pic on the a website...esp the flowers!

Actually...from here u can see that Its PAINTED BY ME!

I was bored and I began to do this pic...its consider a not-bad-piece by a non-artistic me..hehez

I am feeling extremely unwell,I so in pain thant I'm almost to the ground!

Hi guys!I dunno whats happening to blogger cuz the icons in the posting area is all messed up. But anyway I'm able to do the blogging...I just watched the Just follow law DVD and my sis went to explore the laozhabor.blogspot.com and there is really this blog!Its so amazing and I went on to see her older posts then i realized she's already on papers for a couple of time!wow~And I recently just finished a book "Vanished" by Karen Robards. Its my first time reading a thriller and its a v. nice book,a rather gd book to introduce to all of u.Oh yeah, I'm also quite addicted to watching My girl ..but I can only watched it on youtube...i dun like small screen...haiz,my sister took so long still haven borrow for me!!!argh!opps,getting more and more short-tempered.Not choice,when things doesn't go well for one,one gets crazy...K ,i noe your dunno what Im talkin abt...nvm...

I’ve been very bored but busy these days. Bored because there is nth new for me to do anyway. However, now is the season of exams and this means I have quite busy schedule for tuitions. Three tuitions a day for me is hectic. CCK to Bt Batok to TW,tired! And I think I have been too nice to my students that they tend to get too easy on their work …haiz,too strict cannot,too lenient cannot…what the heck. Days ago,choon just told me a website to watch shows and the image are quite clear. I’ve watch 200 pounds of beauty and its quite nice. The ost is also nice,tts why I’ve put in my playlist in this blog. The name is star. Very nice! But I dun understand why the Hanna still likes the producer when she noes he is using her. Anyway I like the ending of this movie.Hehez. I wanna go out,but I’m lazy to travel. There should be a invent teleport and teleport scroll,whenever we need to go to places,just teleport. Damn nice.Well,bottom line is,I’m lazy.

Its Laour Day today!And I'm quite busy!hahaz,I've got three tuition today and two of them was in the morning ,consecutively...Busy is a good thing for me,that means I don't have time to think too much.I am trying very hard not to think pessimistically and I really hope it does well for me.Labour day up to this moment seems a good day,people are playing badminton at the bad. court downstairs and the playground is filled with kids,its crowded and nice.Not like usual where everyone is busy with work and studies and no one remember what is fun...Back to my tuition,I'm quite worried for my student,he did not do well for his CA and his SA is coming up,there is simply no enough time to help him.Haiz,I hope I can improve his grades and they wil continue to hire me...hehez.Hopefully.

This just makes me HIGH!

My life has been so boring that I've got not much thing to blog about.However, when I came across one of my friends blog,it seems like she and others are clinching good job at banks,whereas Im just a tuition teacher.I am so envious of them!haiz,but what can I do?I am just not in luck.Argh!
Oh yeah anyway, now that I'm into the job of tuition, i have to do tuition morning as well,so that means i need to take the LRT in the morning. All these while that i've taken the lrt,I've seen two of my primary sch frenz,BUT,we did not even make an eye contact !Why?!? I also dunno, maybe theres the shyness,the awkwardness that wedge in between us. How nice if all of us were to travel into the time dimension whereby we were all primary school kids.There would be dreams,wishes and hope.Not like now,several things are really,beyond our control.
But No way am i gonna lead my life like that.I want a change in my life,Yesh!

I read bukoh mary's blog and came by this line :如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有什么意义？
I was thinking
:如果时间不可以令我忘记那些不该记住的事，我失去的岁月又有什么意义？

Youth is like flower seeds before they sprout.Just as growing seeds must break through a layer of soil, youth is the time for challenge. Only those who challenge will develop themselves with strength and become victors in life. Look forward as someone blossom into a beautiful and strong person.Wish it,Dream it,Do it!

I'm still unable to put that regret behind me,no matter how hard I've try.

: Busy busy:

Saturday was a busy day for me. I had to wake up at 7am, get out of home at 8.15am to teach tuition at CCK which was at 9am.After the hectic tuition with the active kid, on the way home, another kid’s mother ring me up to change the tuition time in the aftn from 2.30 to 1.30pm. So when I reached home, it was 11am. Two more hrs to rest before I went off for tuition. My lunch was a bit pathetic, Koka noodles +hotdog. Aft a quick bath, I went out again. When I reached there, I realized I had to teach the kid 3 pic discussion, which was supposed to be quite fast ,if not for the kid sucking his “push and pop” sweet and talking away. He can write halfway and ask me qns like “Do you want to be a teacher when you grow up?” and “Do you play maple story?” and he would start blabbering away. The thing is if he can multi-task between his mouth and his hand that would be good. But, he cannot. When his mouth started moving, his hand stops moving at the same time, vice versa. That’s the thing about kids, they won’t know what to say, what not to say. Simply put, they have no secrets. So after this aftn tuition, I reached home at about 4 plus. However, my day did not end like that; I still got night tuition at 8pm, at bt batok. Wow~ But the he good thing is papa managed to get home in time to drive me there, so I can rest a bit more of time and saved me the hassle of changing two buses, most importantly, saved the bus fare. I slept quite early ytd,at 11.30pm. This is not abnormal for me who had nightmares and insomnia the days before. I dreamt of people jumping off the building comitting suicide,for two consecutive nights.Horrible. I was awaken from these nightmares and went back to sleep in vain.I kept tossing and turning,and I realised I think Im suffering from hair loss. Every morning when Im making my bed,I always spotted lots of hair on my bed,OMG!Im still tired though ytd night I didnt have nightmare but I was dreaming the whole night. People told me that dreams can strain your energy. I dreamt that the guy I like was a gay but I cant see the face of the mysterious guy!Weird eh?!?I must be thinking too much...

Here's a interesting story to share with all :

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full they agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar . Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things- your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions--things that if everything else was lost and only they remained ...your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car.The sand is everything else -- the small stuff.If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal." Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

When things in your life seem almost too much too handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

nice?

Hmmm… I felt very lazy to upload the pictures I’ve promised, so no pictures for this entry. Frankly speaking, I’ve not much interesting things happening to my life up till this moment of my life, so, I actually don’t know what to blog about. Talking about last Friday, I went to the little get-together cum JJ +Annabel birthday surprise session with the sec peeps. It was quite ok, at least I managed to know what’s happening to their life at the moment and how’re they doing. One thing that I’m sure of is that, my good friends and I have drifted. Not far, but very far. I have no idea what the things they are talking among themselves coz I’m the only jc student there and they are all poly. Not that I don’t feel comfortable or think they what ok! I just think I dunno the stuffs they’re talking about. Those goggles…sci lab…attachments. They were discussing among themselves and I …was really out of the picture. Sad. The only fortunate thing was that JJ was able to crap with me throughout the dinner time coz she don’t want to talk about school stuffs after her attachment whole day …she was tired. My friend used to consult, or should I say confide her problems to me…now, I don’t even know who her crush is. The gap is getting bigger and bigger but I can’t seem to seal it back. Guess the time and chemistry is not there anymore.