This just makes me HIGH!

My life has been so boring that I've got not much thing to blog about.However, when I came across one of my friends blog,it seems like she and others are clinching good job at banks,whereas Im just a tuition teacher.I am so envious of them!haiz,but what can I do?I am just not in luck.Argh!
Oh yeah anyway, now that I'm into the job of tuition, i have to do tuition morning as well,so that means i need to take the LRT in the morning. All these while that i've taken the lrt,I've seen two of my primary sch frenz,BUT,we did not even make an eye contact !Why?!? I also dunno, maybe theres the shyness,the awkwardness that wedge in between us. How nice if all of us were to travel into the time dimension whereby we were all primary school kids.There would be dreams,wishes and hope.Not like now,several things are really,beyond our control.
But No way am i gonna lead my life like that.I want a change in my life,Yesh!

I read bukoh mary's blog and came by this line :如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有什么意义？
I was thinking
:如果时间不可以令我忘记那些不该记住的事，我失去的岁月又有什么意义？

Youth is like flower seeds before they sprout.Just as growing seeds must break through a layer of soil, youth is the time for challenge. Only those who challenge will develop themselves with strength and become victors in life. Look forward as someone blossom into a beautiful and strong person.Wish it,Dream it,Do it!

I'm still unable to put that regret behind me,no matter how hard I've try.

: Busy busy:

Saturday was a busy day for me. I had to wake up at 7am, get out of home at 8.15am to teach tuition at CCK which was at 9am.After the hectic tuition with the active kid, on the way home, another kid’s mother ring me up to change the tuition time in the aftn from 2.30 to 1.30pm. So when I reached home, it was 11am. Two more hrs to rest before I went off for tuition. My lunch was a bit pathetic, Koka noodles +hotdog. Aft a quick bath, I went out again. When I reached there, I realized I had to teach the kid 3 pic discussion, which was supposed to be quite fast ,if not for the kid sucking his “push and pop” sweet and talking away. He can write halfway and ask me qns like “Do you want to be a teacher when you grow up?” and “Do you play maple story?” and he would start blabbering away. The thing is if he can multi-task between his mouth and his hand that would be good. But, he cannot. When his mouth started moving, his hand stops moving at the same time, vice versa. That’s the thing about kids, they won’t know what to say, what not to say. Simply put, they have no secrets. So after this aftn tuition, I reached home at about 4 plus. However, my day did not end like that; I still got night tuition at 8pm, at bt batok. Wow~ But the he good thing is papa managed to get home in time to drive me there, so I can rest a bit more of time and saved me the hassle of changing two buses, most importantly, saved the bus fare. I slept quite early ytd,at 11.30pm. This is not abnormal for me who had nightmares and insomnia the days before. I dreamt of people jumping off the building comitting suicide,for two consecutive nights.Horrible. I was awaken from these nightmares and went back to sleep in vain.I kept tossing and turning,and I realised I think Im suffering from hair loss. Every morning when Im making my bed,I always spotted lots of hair on my bed,OMG!Im still tired though ytd night I didnt have nightmare but I was dreaming the whole night. People told me that dreams can strain your energy. I dreamt that the guy I like was a gay but I cant see the face of the mysterious guy!Weird eh?!?I must be thinking too much...

Here's a interesting story to share with all :

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full they agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar . Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things- your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions--things that if everything else was lost and only they remained ...your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car.The sand is everything else -- the small stuff.If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal." Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

When things in your life seem almost too much too handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

nice?

Hmmm… I felt very lazy to upload the pictures I’ve promised, so no pictures for this entry. Frankly speaking, I’ve not much interesting things happening to my life up till this moment of my life, so, I actually don’t know what to blog about. Talking about last Friday, I went to the little get-together cum JJ +Annabel birthday surprise session with the sec peeps. It was quite ok, at least I managed to know what’s happening to their life at the moment and how’re they doing. One thing that I’m sure of is that, my good friends and I have drifted. Not far, but very far. I have no idea what the things they are talking among themselves coz I’m the only jc student there and they are all poly. Not that I don’t feel comfortable or think they what ok! I just think I dunno the stuffs they’re talking about. Those goggles…sci lab…attachments. They were discussing among themselves and I …was really out of the picture. Sad. The only fortunate thing was that JJ was able to crap with me throughout the dinner time coz she don’t want to talk about school stuffs after her attachment whole day …she was tired. My friend used to consult, or should I say confide her problems to me…now, I don’t even know who her crush is. The gap is getting bigger and bigger but I can’t seem to seal it back. Guess the time and chemistry is not there anymore.

Nostalgia II

On wed, I went back to YJ to retrieve my testimonial. Coz I dun want to go collect it myself in may, so I went with a friend who happens to go back also. Along the way, I saw familiar roads, familiar buildings, and familiar uniform. When we stepped into the school, I was hoping not to bump into any teachers coz I don’t know how to face them with my results you see…anyway, we met someone unexpectedly…Our once-lib-teacher-in-charge. He seems to not see us and scurried hurriedly away. Aft we’ve collected our things, we went to the canteen coz the food was one of the things we missed in YJ. We went to the familiar Malay stall and amazingly, the friendly auntie still remembers us and we catch up a bit. Touched and happy was what I felt. My friend packed her food and off we go. On the way back to the interchange, I passed by the playground where my friend and I used to played before. Yes, I admit we were quite childish but those are memories that we hold on together eh. As much as I hate YJ, I’ve learn a lot in YJ. It exposes me to all kinds of people and situations and allows me to experience many things I’ve never done and felt before. I’ve taken some pictures of the interchange where I’ve been taking the 171 bus to and fro school; will upload probably in the next post. Guess that’s all for this entry, see your in the next entry, bye dudes.

Nostalgia I

TAda!I'm back.Cheers.K enough of the disgusting stuffs. Got quite a no. of things to blog.Lets start with the tiny weeny gathering ...shld be tiny weeny get-together with my ex-jc frenz.Its was quite a fun outing,though some of the usual peeps still ps us.However,its quite good that we can still stay "buddy" without any awkwardness...The three of them have not changed a bit. Cant believe the last time I saw them was nearly 2 YEARS ago...hahaz.Aft we meet up,huiwen wanna eat pepper lunch...she claim that there is one in raffles city but going rounds in the mall,we still cnt find.So...we went marina sq where we FINALLY settle for Billy Bombers aft much dicussions.

My surf n turf (fish,steak with potato salad)

huiyu's steak with potato salad

huiwen's ole fish n fries(she went to see handsome models on the runway b4 the food is even served!hehe)
see teng's balls o'fire sp
Taken in Esplanade...nice bamboos

Reminiscence

(ALL Photos provided by nice see teng)

Look forward to Nostalgia II.Bye peeps:)

I dun really like today.I went to tutor one of my kids tonight. He got 3/10 for his spelling. I really dun understand,when I taught him last week,he can rmb,however when he went for spelling the next day, he forgot everything. I came to know some things now,maybe I’m not cut out for studies at all.I should have gone to poly and not waste my two years of JC and gotten this damn lousy results.What am I supposed to do aft this?Looking at my friends who got so damn good results in his common tests, I really felt so awful.Why did I insist on going to JC aft so many coaxes and reminders?Now,I have to struggle to make more money to afford the hefty school fees of the pte uni.JCU called me today,confirm me a place there,but Im gonna wait for SIM first. Im currenly having six kids for tutoring ,though some of the tuition fees are below the market price,but I dun really mind.Though I still grumble a bit here and there,but having to be tutoring for the first time for all the primary levels,hopefully I can handle.Soo mei says that uni only study about 2-3 days a week,so that left me sufficient time to tutor pple in the morning and aft. I really hope I can handle my studies and tutoring well,if not,I really dunno where to produce the money when the semester comes. Jia you!

Hmmm…its been two weeks since my last entry.These two weeks have been the most ups and downs in my life ever since I was breathing.Lets not talk about the past and look forward.I applied for SIM and the course was business admin. Sounds a bit unbelievable?I thought so. I’m not a person that’s practical and I thought I’ll never go into business in my whole wide life,not even my next lifetime.However,given my situation, I have to go into a course that enables me to secure a job next time I enter the society.I dunno if I had the confidence to outmaneuver it.I can’t imagine carrying a laptop around talking about finance,economics,the govt’s budget and flipping the Money and Economy and Finance section of Straits Time.However, to study business,I had to read newspaper and got a good grasp of the current economics situation.Business is so…too practical for me. I went to JCU ytd also.Its inside SPRING building.Kinda ulu when frenz and I went in,and I had a clearer view of what I’m gonna study under business.The tourism management sounds nice also,but the JCU is rather far for me and there is even a class with 1 lecturer and 2 students inside only!Strange.Or should I apply pte cand. as well?haiz.There was a $200 bucks tuition offer for me,but in the end,the parents found another agency .sai.I’ve only 2 students under me.Not enough.Need more.I know this is a lousy way to end this blog entry but I really dunno what else to write,look forward to my next entry folks,bye!

Hi everyone, haven been posting any new entries for the past couples of day.Reason being, I dun have any particular things to post given that nothing interesting have been happening to my life.Tmr,will be the biggest event of my life in 2007.My results gonna released at 2.30pm sharp.I'm still not feeling nervous and have been eating and sleeping well.This is not a good thing,and v, unusual.Not because I'm confident.Its v. abnormal.I dunno how many pple are viewing my blog,but I have to say,I really dunno whats gonna happen tmr.I aint gonna see my good frenz coz they are gonna be.....so I have a lonely feeling of getting the results .Furthermore,I dunno what expressions my teachers gonna give me given that they are quite.........Why haven i thought of all these things when took the exam????!!!Those who read my blog, give me all your good luck!

The Protégé

I went to watch The Protégé with yinting.The movie turn out to be v. diff from what I thought.Its quite amazing to see how their “kitchen”where drugs are produced are ,plus how the drug-peddlers and the police nicknamed diff. size and kinds of drug. Though the scene of the female lead been bitten by the rats are horrifying, however, I think her acting skills are fabulous.Her daughter ,to me,is strong.Not physically but mentally.She only cried once and she is obedient,knows how to take care of herself by running to the undercover to look for food.Although she is young and kinda ignorant---but she is good in some way.Other children only knows how to cry. Andy lau’s part is touching and sad.I can understand his point of view to earn fast money,but as the undercover said, his values are wrong.Absolutely to me. The last scene leaves me puzzled. Did or did not the undercover inject the drug?Think not.As I said,the girl is good in some way. Pulls away the needle.

Trust is also another highlight in the movie.I dun understand why the Kun ge(Andy lau's character) would choose to believe in the undercover and when in fact,he doesn't believe in anyone ,not even his business partners.I feel so sorry for him when he said all those things that the undercover and him went through that made him believe in the undercover.His last begging of the undercover to allow him to die shows his love for his family.He deceive himself by believing that the business he did is not wrong,but actual fact,he does know.Thats why he keep saying things like"Its the drug-addicters fault,I did not promote drugs..."over and over again in fast speed.People might think its a funny scene,its does,but there seems to be an underlying meaning to me.
The whole movie compromises of comedy,tragic,harshness of reality and...running away from reality of people.Good movie indeed.

Its 12.35pm and I cant get to sleep.I feel so stressed talkin with my friend, she actually got to thinking and....argh!I 've been having so many sleepless nights ,thinking about so many things that I dun wanna think.Schooling stressed,working unhappy,no work also unhappy,Y is my life so dull and boring?So empty,dry and lifeless!I think Im gonna hibernate and retreat into my own world soon, just like in the past,gu pi!

Frustrated is the word!

I've been hooked on to this jap animations called "Atashin'chin" aka 我們這一家.Its v. hilarious ans it brightens up my day.The characters are,too,v. funny and it portrays problems and situations tts v. close to our livelihood.Its available at the youtube.

The happy family

Daughter and her bestie
The LEAD Character,Mrs Hua!

I just wanna live my life carefree now, sleep 12 hrs a day, read my v, own books, do housework,good temper,smile wide wide everyday.Not everyone have to live the life of someone else,envy doesnt get anyone anywhere, neither do jealousy.Carpe diem,do the things we want, say the things we want, dun let timidness,cowardness overwhelmed us,for we dont know when we be gone.Have a big heart.

Actually I had a draft of ytd's blog, but I cant seem to cont'd the post.Haiz,anyway, my frenz sms ytd telling me she got a tuition assignment,askin me whether to take up anot,i agree and she said will tell me more today.However, she went to ask another frenz of mine TODAY askin her whether she wans the assignment anot.I mean,What is this?I've already agreed and she go on to approach other pple without even telling me the rest ??Can frenz be trusted?NO.Should have known this thoery v. well.The good thing is I did not place too much hope on this task ,if not, I would be cursing and swearing now.Its been more than a year since I've patronize Kbox,haiz, when can I go?PPle say tt 9 Feb is the date of O'lvl results release, one week aft,which is 16 Feb, will be A lvl's turn.What the heck, can they give me a happy CNY?Just 2 days b4 if they release results,I will go bonkers.Furthermore, MY clique are going to take their results at a much later time than me, so,I supposed nobody's gonna go with me...BEST.PUI4Am I supposed to go to the hall and sit down there alone?Like an idiot?And face everything by myself?Damn it.Better to depend on oneself,no one's gonna accompany and support anyone forever.

Bakery..random

I'd wish to work in a bakery if given the chance.Ever since I've read the book "Sophie's bakery for the broken heart",I think that it would be great to work in a bakery, if possible, my own bakery!However,I don't even know how to bake a cookie, how is it gonna be possible leh?

Anyway, I finally got the chance to eat my "DA WAN MIAN",its actually fried chicken noodles.But its my favourite meal at bt panjang plaza. I always eat that whenever I went there.I dunno why I like the dish but its just my fav.Hehez.

pic taken from www.justhungry.com

Fragile life...

A great day today.Ytd the news reported an actress from taiwan got hit and was in dangerous coma, but hours later, she was reported dead.She is not even the driver but was just sitting at the front seat and she got such a great impact on the head from the hit that she died.While the driver, which is her assistant,suffered ,minor injuries.She was so young and so many things waiting for her to do.I feel so sad for her.It then occurred to me that really," life occurs in a split second","shen ming zai yu shun jian".While I was passing by the living room to walk over to my room, I saw the floods in Malaysia and 17 pple died in tt,suddenly I thought of the so called "floods" in Singapore,and realised, could Singapore encounter such floods?And,could we die in that kind of floods?It is said that Singapore do not have any natural disasters,but then, floods,from the unusual rains these days,could have worsen and we would be in that kind of situation aint it?I was phoning my ex-boss and negotiating over my pay and realised I count one day less, shit, must remember to tell her if not she cut more pay.Damn her.But when thinking that a person's life could be so fragile, I felt less angry at her behaviour.Why not let go a bit to relax myself and lead a happier life?Since I have no idea of when I'd be taken by god...